so bored...

hi guys, its my official last day in victoria, tomorrow im going to vancouver, and guess what im doing?!? im having a huge party and hanging out with cool people who are my friends.. jk jk no first of all i don't have any cool friends... not u guys are awesome. and secondly i have no where to have a party. but yeah. woah, k my uncle and auntie came over and they have a huge puppy. haha he came down and licked my leg and ran away. i guess i don't taste very good..lol. hmm.. anyways, today i think im just hanging out in my huskie shorts and cleaning, reading and blogging of course. then maybe this afternoon im going out with my parents (nathans skiing) and shopping and stopping by my moms friend's place to see her kid. then i think tonight we are all going to our family friends house for dessert. yummmy!!! and i'll probably come home, check my email and crash for the night. i have to get up sorta early cause we are all going to breakfast (still can't decide where) before we catch the ferry, which we catch at 10:30. so yeah, then after that i spend the night in a hotel which we will be nice. and my grandparents are staying over in vancouver with us for the night to have new years dinner with us. i think we will be going to earls or moxies or something. then monday i begin my journey of traveling again.. woot woot, i can't wait. yes u can hear how enthused i am. but duty calls and i must leave you.

an old friend...

well its been another relaxing day in victoria. i have to say though that i love it here a lot, but i miss you guys soooo much. i miss being able to call you and just hang out. anyways, well this morning my dad, nathan, destiny, my grandpa and i all walked up mount doug. it is so beautiful out there with all the tall trees unfortunalty which some have been damaged a lot by the wind and snow. anyways, its just beautiful out there. after our walk we came home and nathan and i went into the hot tub. that explains itself.. lol i got out after 5 minutes.. hey thats pretty good for being in there with my brother! anyways, after that we all got dressed and showered and whatnot and we went to my grandpa's golfing club. its quite fancy there and they even have a dress code! but the funny thing was the only pants i brought were jeans because i wasn't going to dress up too much but i had broght nice tops to kinda dress the jeans up a bit. but anyways, the only kind of pants u are not allowed to wear are jeans so i here i was in this expensive golf club eating..in my huskie pants..lol wow that was fun.. after we had lunch my mom decided that i should go over and visit my old buddy Luke. now luke and i were best friends since about grade 2. we lost contact when i moved and we haven't talked since. i was so excited to hear that he moved to victoria so i could finally see him. so as i was walking to his door i was nervous not knowing what to expect at all. i saw some dogs run to the door and my heart was racing then.. he answered the door. i actually said oh my gosh when i saw him.. which was sorta weird but i was used to the Luke who was shorter than me, short haired, obssesed with limp biskit and skateboarding instead standing in front of me was a long curly haired, somewhat grungy/skater boyish guy obssesed with his computer wearing a pink floyd t-shirt. he looked at me and i looked at him.. we said nothing and my parents talked to his dad and i left. i had a feeling that no words would be exchanged between the two of us but at least i saw him. but yeah, he still looks the same underneath all that hair and i honestly miss having him as a friend. but things change when people grow up and move away. i wonder what it would be like if i was still in calgary. id probably either be skateboarding with the guys, or watching a movie with nathan and amanda. in some ways i miss that but now i have katelynn, steph, erin and leon of course and u guys could never be replaced. thats the good thing about moving u make new friends but u still have ur old ones too. although in the process people stop keeping in contact, like luke and i which is a shame but life must go on. anyways, i mustn't start with my moving stories and move onto a different topic. now im sitting in the dark worrying about things. worrying that i won't finish my homework and i am going to mess uop on my piano exam and that i won't find my purse and i will loose all that money and stuff. but theres not much i can do. but i better go for now. i miss you guys a lot.

another day in victoria

well i had another interesting day i guess. woke up around 10:30 and had breakfast. i walked back to my room and was gunna grab my towel to have a shower but i got into bed again and fell asleep tile 12:50. which is really not like me at all to sleep in. anyways, then i got up and got dressed. our family had lunch, my dad went out to visit with his old school buddies, and after he came home we all went out shopping. i didn't buy anything cause my mom and me started to fight a bit but we came home with a screaming baby. we think her stomach might be hurting her cause she was just screaming her head off. anyways, now we are back at home with our grandparents and my great auntie and uncle are over visitng my parents mostly. i have no clue what i am doing tonight, all i can reallly do is eat and go on msn. for some reason my email isn't working. maybe its this dumb macintosh computer im on. oh well. but i guess ill go for now cause i can't think of anything else to write or type i guess. but i better go.. i miss you all soooo much and i can't wait to see you guys next week. have fun at the all nighter too. love y'all

again!

heyy guys. wow, does this ever happen? grace updating her blog more than once a week? wow, now i feel special... well i should, katelynn and steph.. and erin tell me that a lot... lol anyways.. i think those tylonol nighttime pills are making me a little bit sleepy.....yeahh im still sick, i felt a lot better today but then as soon as i got home it was like BAM! there goes my throat, my nose and im tired and achy. oh well... i'll live with it. now my mom is sick too. she has wat my dad had. still don't know exactly what that is tho. the only people in our house right now who aren't sick are nathan, the baby (hopefully she won't get sick), the dog, and the fish.. lol but yeah, now i have to get going cause i have to pack my bags for tomorrow. i'll talk to you guys later and im soo excited about youth on friday!
-gRaCiE

long post

hi guys. hope fully this post will be long, or longer than the ones that i usually write, not Katelynn long tho..lol yeah i feel like all i write on my blog is wat i do in the day but not exactly how i feel. i guess i don't exactly want people to know my opininions cause im afraid that it will be alot different from wat they think, although there is that chance that they have the same opinion as you. well today im home sick with a cold. i've gotton sick a lot lately, probably caught it from someone at school or from my family. my daddy was really sick the last two days and still is. i have no clue wats wrong with him. its worse than the flu but kinda like it. hopefully none of you will get sick from me so thats part of the reason i stayed home, except i tried to go back at lunch, made it thru drivers ed.. yay... and then felt really sick and felt like my head was going to explode. so then i went home. when my mom was driving me home she was telling me how ever since i started going out with leon i haven't tried as hard with my piano and theory. im not going to deny this because lately i haven't had any motivation to play piano, or study for my theory exam. i know i'll do good, becasue i always make it through. i was one of the nerdy kids in elementry school (maybeim still a nerd) that freeked out before a test even though i studied hard and new i was going to get in the 90's. everything just came so easily to me, school, band... now that i have got into that pattern of things coming easily to me, when im given a challenge i don't try as hard as i can cause i know that i could just wing it and do a good job. and now its starting to eat away at me because after i do a good job on something like a piano performance or something, i feel this pang of guilt and this voice tells me, grace you didn't do ur best, yes ur performance was good but it could have been even better. even if other people don't notice, you will. and a few days ago my gramma called and was like im so proud of you gracie and your such a determined young women. i know that most grammas say that to their grand kids, but i couldn't help but feel guilty again. things like that make me want to try harder but i feel lazy like y would i want to try hard. and leon doesn't exactly contribute to me feeling like i can't try hard.. the way i see it sometimes is that y would i do my piano or do a good job when i could just hang out with leon or go on the computer. well, i guess theres a lot for me to think about. hmm wats some more stuff thats happening. well i was really worried about katelynn for a bit there. still worried but not as much.. oh my little erin (wait she's taller than me!) is growing up so fast. already off to arizona
for raquetball. i hope you do good hunni and ill by praying for you! and steph is amazing at sewing. lol i am not. yeahh.. but i got to go now
ttyl

were twins erin!

heyy guys. no erin and i aren't really twins. its just that i lost my binder. the last time i saw it was Friday at school. i remember bringing it home and now i can't find it... i looked everywhere for it. so yeah this really sucks. hopefully i'll find it. what else? well my house is now officially christmasfied! we put up the tree yesterday and ate lots of cinnomen buns made by yours truely.. and my mom..lol then we watched pirates of the carribean 2 which my dad bought!! yay now i can watch it lots, we should watch it together guys cause i fell asleep through the whole movie..lol yeah i really wanna watch it again. anyways, youth was soo much fun. i love robyns house i want to have something like that when im older. it looks like fun having your own crib..lol i mean house. yeahh no im not turning gangster, i know im so good at it but... yea no.. im not. hmm wat else can i say? well today ive eaten some pineapple, a boiled egg, and right now some cheerio snack mix. yummmmy. oh if ur wondering y im not at church well its cause my mom needed me home and my dad is sick so my mom needs a alot of help with the baby and stuff. but if u guys can tell me wat the service was about id love that.. haha test to see if ur paying attention! oh at 1:30 me and katie are playing at the library. and then its the spirit of chirstmas at 6:30. but im gunna go cause i have really nothing to say... sooooooooooo bye
-dUcKiE

hi guys, i really wanted to update cause yeah i haven't had time to, or i guess made time. Well so far this week has been going well although its only monday! i have i pretty busy week, but its gunna be lots of fun. i just can't for youth.. again! i love it sooo much!! anyways, this weekend i hung out with leon on saturday cause it was our 5 months... and we went out to mcnally robinson and ate at prarie ink, the food was soooo good! then we made cookies and ate cookie dough and watched a dumb movie called shadow boxer. then leon went home. the next day, sunday!!! church was amazing, i loved the songs. then after church went home and had chili then shopping with leon and my mom. then drop in and worship man that was exhausting. as much as i love worhsip its exhausting. but i got to go cause the bells gunna ring. love you all!!!

psalm 119:169

May my cry come before you, O Lord;
give me understanding according to your word.
May my supplication come before you;
deliver me according to your promise.
may my lips overflow with praise,
for you teach me your decrees.
May my tongue sing of your word,
for all your commands are righteous.
May your hand be ready to help me,
for I have chosen your precepts.
I long for your salvation, O Lord,
and your law is my delight.
Let melive that I may praise you,
and may your laws sustain me.
I have strayed like a lost sheep.
Seek your servant,
for I have not forgotton your commands...

heyy everyone
im in english class right now, working on this song thingy. katelynn and i are doing a song called hero by superchick[k] but i got to go the bell rang

and the journey begins...

well a few days ago we got out first baby, no my mom did not have a baby, we became a foster family. the first baby we got was 6 months old and her name was brooklyn. we only had her overnight and then was returned to her mother. the same day my mom went to the hospital and picked up Destiny. she is the sweetest baby, she hardly ever cries and all she does is smile at you, she sleeps a lot and eats of course. shes soooo cute! anyways, enough about babies...
this weekend is my soccer tounie, had a game last night at 10:00! wow that was exhausting... umm welost kinda badly but shannon (the goalie) played realllllly well. oh yeah thursday was her birthday too!! still have to find her a present... oh well imadfe 100 dollers on friday with ellen playing at my dad's office christmas party. hmm.. i have to go tho cause i need to play piano.. again.. hopefully i'll see u all sunday

We stand and lift up our hands
For the joy of the Lord is our strength
We bow down and worship Him now
How great, how awesome is He

And together we sing
Everyone sing

Holy is the Lord God Almighty
The earth is filled with His glory
Holy is the Lord God Almighty
The earth is filled with His glory
The earth is filled with His glory

We stand and lift up our hands
For the joy of the Lord is our strength
We bow down and worship Him now
How great, how awesome is He

And together we sing
Everyone sing

Holy is the Lord God Almighty
The earth is filled with His glory
Holy is the Lord God Almighty
The earth is filled with His glory
The earth is filled with His glory

It's rising up all around
It's the anthem of the Lord's renown

Holy is the Lord God Almighty
The earth is filled with His glory
Holy is the Lord God Almighty
The earth is filled with His glory
The earth is filled with His glory

party at gracie's...lol

heyy guys, halloween night...yay... im having a blast. actually its not that bad.. haha steph and bryn, u guys are probably freezing outside right now. oh well, im having fun handing out candy and seeing all the little kids (and the big ones..lol) in their costumes. and you know, i really wanted to go out trick or treating but running outside in the cold with a costume on and a heavy bag of candy isn't as fun as it used to be. but yeahh... so pretty much done nothing tonight except for eat a (only ONE) chocolate bar, ummm read some more of Ender's game.. dumb english... and give myself a french manicure. but im am on my daddys laptop and he needs it so i will post later to tell you the rest of the details of my oh so fun halloween night..
love y'all...

at school

heyy guys, at school right now... so bored... we are writing an essay on locke and demonsethese or something or other.. g2g bell rang

confuzeld are u

heyy guys, i haveto apologize, i know u guys were really confused when i was taking a break.. and i guess so was i. but yeah, srry i kinda didn't tell u what was really going on. but to set things straight i am totally fine now, im emailing, blogging (well obviously) and talking to leon. so yeah and anyways... man it seems like there are so many people to pray for these days.. i guess i should be thankful that God gaveme so many friends, even though a lot of them are going through hard times right now. and don't get me wrong, i love praying for my friends, especially one i can't talk to everyday. but yeah, i dunno its kinda sad in a way, but i guess we all go through hard times in our lives, and im thankful that i have people like you guys looking out for me. but back to today i guess, well the day has hardly started.. its 8:11. today i have a soccer game at 8:30, sucks that katelynn can't come but i believe you have volleyball tonight? haha im cool, im listning to avril lavigne. k guys im so pumped for friday night. it would be totally awesome if you could tell me ASAP if you can come for a sleepover k? i guess i'll talk to u more about at school. mhmmm.. i got to go tho, cause my hairs wet. and i have to dry it..lol

break time!!

heyy guys, im guessing ur all wonder y i wasn't at drop in, y im not calling you, and y im not at school right now. Truth is, i need a break from life. I have been too caught up in everyone elses problems that i have had no time to sit and think about how my life is going and where its going and so forth, just those kinda things. Yesterday i pretty much just broke. I felt emotions that i never thought i could or would ever feel. I felt very alone, desperate, hopeless.. and other things that you probably wouldn't expect that i would feel. although its not just yesterday that ive been feeling like this..especially the loneliness... i have been on an emotional rollercoaster but anyways, so today im just taking a break, i actually slept, i m gunna do some homework and have the day to myself. and for the whole week, possibly more, im taking a break from Leon. no we are not breaking up, no im not mad and him and hes not mad at me. we need some time to ourselves, i have a lot of things in my life i need to deal with and i have a lot of changes too and the same for him. so im not talking to him at all, or seeing him. so one thing you guys could do for me would be to try not to talk about it or anything, because its a little hard for me right now. We didn't exactly choose a break but i realize that its probably for the best. but yeah, this week, don't be surprised if i stop emailing you alltogether, calling and such, i really just need a week to chill and get my thoughts together and to think about how im feeling about all this. lately people have been giving me their opinions about things, and i haven't had time to express my own. so thats pretty much what this week is all about. there are a few issues that i need to sort through but im much better even this morning and me and my parents are getting along a lot better, especially me and my mom. but i have to go and get started, the day is already half done.

he he...

hey everyone.. srry for not posting for like a bazillion years.. well i guess it wasn't that long... but yeah. Once again i'll blame it on my bussiness, and moodiness cause that gets me in trouble..lol yeah lately i haven't been myself.. a little edgy and my moods are just a big rollercoaster,one minute im angry and have the deepest hate in my heart (yes i know thats from Satan) and the next everythings perfect and im on top of the world. but, i guess thats growing up for u.. anyways, i had my first soccer game on tuesday! i was soo nervous, i didn't want to go. But my katelynn showed up and i was like, yeah im gunna play. and then i look up at katelynn when i sit on the bench after my first shift and there's leon! i was so happy to see him cause i didn't expect him to come. then aftermy 3rd shift i looked up again and there is keith shouting at me and waving..lol everyones like who is that?! and im like, that.. wel that is Keith..lol but yeah, it pumped me up so much to have my friends there. and i love playing soccer with shannon, she is such a good goalie. but yeah, we won the game 3 to 1. well this weekend is going to be interesting, so pumped for mission impossible tonight!!! its gunna be so cold but i'll just put on a million layers. so after school im going shopping to try to find black pants and a white shirt with ewwww a coller... i have to get some for band and choir. the only thing im excited about is that we get to wear red ties! i dunno y thats exciting but yeahh..lol Then im going to youth, and supposedly leons making me dinner tonight...lol and then after youth who knows wat. saturday i have soccer.. come watch if u can, i understand if u can't cause its sorat early. I play at the new soccer center at 12:00. But yeahhh..Then im going to see the grude 2!!! im am sooo pumped for that, ive been waiting to see it for ages it seems like. yeah leons taking me..lol and then church on sunday and drop in and the best part... WORSHIP!!!!! me and katelynn loove worship..lol yeahhhhhh...but like i said, srry that ive been soo busy and if any can hang out or like just wants to talk *cough* erin (who i haven't talked to in forever) give me a dingle..lol katelynn... i better go get ready for school. love y'all!!!
haha stephie, the pic is for u..lol

LuNcH @ dq!!

heyy peoples!! i was soo afraid last night that we wouldn't all be able to get together for lunch today.... and then after third, there was kent tapping me on the shoulder! lol it was so funny to see him at school, i was like its probably steph or something and then it was kent! but yeah.. anywayys so katleynn, steph, me, bryn, ben, shannon and kent all walked to DQ. we saw jeff driving erin and milly!!! i was soo surprised to see them. and me and katelynn ran up and gave erin a big hug. then we wer all in line and keith, rachel, jenelle and leon showed up. then we all ordered food... ohh yummmmmm french fries!! and chocolate chip cookie dough blizzard!!!! then ben, katelynn, steph, bryn and i all ran back to school and we weren't even late for fourth. although i had a sub for fourth and i have foods and its such a slack class.. yuck wemade omelettes today.. they were soo gross... i don't like omelettes unless my mom makes em..lol and yeah, the funnest part was throwing bubbles at eachother while we wre washing dishes... hah it was soo much fun!!! anyways, i better go. i can't wait for youth group!! yay youth!!! tslk to y'all later

bored

sorry to scare y'all about this "mystery" problem i have. its not that bad. can i just pray for me? anyways, ill be okay so don't worry about it at all. but yeah.. so now im bored and kinda sorta hungry so now im gunna go eat something.. k bye!!! love you guys sooooo much!!!

.......

yeahhh...
well something personal is bothering me right now guys..
i honestly can't and im not allowed to tell u about it but wat i can tell you is i need a hug...

finally updated

heyy everyone, srry its been so long. i have been busy, and i guess lazy too..lol. schools been going fairly well. i have been getting good marks, except for that map quiz on Europe that i failed cause i spelt sweden like sweeden..lol and sicily cicely.... yeah i suck at maps. anyways.. im starting soccer too with shannon very soon which im pumped about cause we don't see eachother much at school and soccer is gunna give us some time to chill with eachother. i love having steph and katelynn withme everyday and im not getting sick of them...yet..jk jk i could never get sick of u guys. hmm wat else? piano is going goot..lol steph.. umm yeah nothing more than that. my weekends have been hanging out with katelyyn and steph and leon mostly. and we tried to go hang out with colton the other day but yeah.. he forgot and was at some girls house who said she was his sister and yeah.. it was slightly weird cause we are like umm colton doesn't have a sister. but yeah.. darn i haveto go upstairs now but hopefully i can update some more and actually read the support4ever blogspot. ttyl

picture time

opps i forgot a picture!!!!

Katelynn, Steph and Gracie!!!!!

yay for us. we are having like the biggest partay ever right now, sweeeeet!! theres like 50 people at my house and we are just partying it up.. woot woot!! jk jk theres me, steph and katelynn sitting here downloading music. i dunno where leon and nathan went. they went outside to do something.. weird... lalalalalalallalalala....
hihihihihihihihihi<-------- steph
hmmm my socks have speed stripes on them... they make me go fast!!!!! <-----steph again

lllllllllllllaaaaaaaaalalalalalallalalalalalalalalalallaal
ya!!!! spice girls and aqua rules!!!!!!

yeah we are soo lame.. anyways, srry i haven;t updated in awhile. hmmm .. i dunno
the case of the missing diritos. actually i think its deritos or something like that. hey we made up a new drink. 7up and iced tea. yummm i think its sprite.. yeah sprite.
g2g ttyl

girlz dayy

today has been so much fun! i woke up at 8:45 this morning to find that the house was empty except for nathan watching tv, but he doesn't count..lol anyways, then i found a protien bar on the counter with my name on it, literally.. haha... so i went downstairs and ate my protien bar and watched another intense episode of cornation street..yay for me..lol then i had my shower, straightened my bangs, brushed my teeth, put on my makeup, got dressed and then made my brother come up and have his shower. my mom phoned me and told me that lynnette was coming to pick me and nathan up to bring us to church. i was like oh okay! then me and nathan waited on the couch and listned to music until lynnette came with my moms van...lol then when i got to church i carried around my neighbor, simone (she's like 3), then i found everyone sitting in church. everyone meaning erin, katelynn, keith, rachel, jeff and kevin. then i walked around and then leon and kent showed up and steph and i talked to them a bit.. but then church was starting so we had to sit down. i was in and out of the service with simone. then after church we all got hamburgers and hotdogs ohh and cake! yummmmm.. so anyways, then katelynn, steph, erin and i went over to katelynn's. and now we are just sititting here hanging out. ohh last night i went on a "hot" date.. according to lynette..lol but yeah, leon and i went to 2nd ave. grill and went to a movie. it was really nice. but yeah, today he's at my house doing homework and then i think he's doing something with nathan. but yeah im gunna go be part of the real world now.. yeah right...lol

back to the old grind..

hey everyone. sorry i haven't been updating for awhile. i've been so busy! but its been nice. i hate being bored and not being able to do anything. schools been going great so far. i love being at a brand new school, and being the oldest of course. wat else? well my classes this semester are gym.. yay, english (enriched), history/band (theres 14 kids in band.. its awesome..), foods, and math which is also enriched. yes i know im a little nerdy but hey, katelynn must be one too cause she's taking all the same classes as me, hey actually i think she might even be more nerdy cause she's taking online accounting..lol sorry katie, that was mean..but i still find it funny.. but yeah. oh speaking of funny... this morning in gym we were running outside on that artificial turf crap and i fell down and like scraped my stomach soo bad and it hurt, but all the guys in my gym class were right behind me..lol oh well i just stood up and laughed but then cried to katelynn and complained that it hurt.. lol mhmm.. well i have soccer to look forward to as well, i figured i need some time to excersize, i don't want to have my own fat club.. lol steph!! also piano is starting again, but im excited and im starting the tenor saxaphone, and playing flute and now possible picilo in band, yes im a band nerd and im proud of it..lol well anyways, tomorrow i get out at like 1 something but i have an src meeting and then i might go for ice cream with steph and her frind bryn which should be fun then on friday youth yay!!! im so excited!!! plus i get to play piano. hmmm, well its been nice but i have to go answer a bunch of emails and comment on blogspots..
<3>

grrrrrr...

steph, katelynn and erin please call me asap!!! jeeze where are u guys????
luv yas

all nite long

wow, i've really sunken low in my boredum now. i'm doing an all nighter with nicky and nathan. well, this should be interesting seeing as its only 11 something and im pretty tired, or maybe just extremly bored.. yeah, thats probably it. i have no emails to answer, amanda is gone, nobody to call and nothing to do, and i actually don't feel like eating. oh well. hmm.. right now nathan and nicky are playing need for speed underground two and im listning to my december by linkin park, which is my all time favorite band.. yay linkin park..lol all i've done today so far is go to lynnette and anthony's to clean jacks cage, shop for more earring cleaner stuff at claires, try on a bunch of shirts and pants at bootlegger, umm eat, go on the computer, answer a bunch of emails...nothing special. grr my back is hurting cause of my dumb computer chair.




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that was random...
well, my life is not very interesting right now.. i think.. not to me at least..
well i guess school is something to look forward to.. starting at a new school should be exciting. not knowing anyone except for katelynn, steph and shannon should be interesting too... piano is just gunna keep taking up more and more of my time.. i mean i love playing the piano a lot, its just so time consuming.. i guess thats wat happens when u are getting ready for a grade 9 exam in january and your doing your grade 3 history... soo yeah, im just rambling on about nonsense..lol its kinda funny, to me.. hmm tomorrow is my mommy's birthday..yay!! i think we are going shopping and then going out for coffee and then my dads taking her out to dinner and i get to stay home with nick and nathan and eat pizza, then after dinner we get to have cake. yummmm... should be fun. ow, my elbow hurts.. haha, its kinda funny how i got this huge cut on my arm. amanda was using my brother's heelies and she gave me a hug from behind me and she started to fall and she brought me down with her.. haha, it looked so funny. anyways..oh no.. nathan and nicky are starting to go crazy.. joy...
i guess steph is gunna be gone for awhile.. aww.. im gunna miss u!!!
and katelynn is with erika in regina i think... and i get to see her on the retreat. im sooo excited for the retreat.
and shannon's home and we've been hanging out a bit this week.
and there always leon.. lol steph.. lee-hon..hahaahhahahahahahahhhah, k im okay..
anyways...he's at camp
but yeah, im gunna go steal the dog from my brother, im sure she's enjoying laying inside my brother's smelly sleeping bag....

early morning

wow.. the ring 2 is the most dumbest movie ever.. okay maybe not ever but i didn't like it.. it wasn't even scary! anyways, i watched this movie last night. nicky (my other brother...lol and one of my best friends) came out from calgary last night. i think he's staying for like 2 weeks or something. he is one year younger than me and we have been friends for 10 years..thats such a long time..anyways... last night my mom also pulled out home movie.. oh joy, and guess who was there.. leon. im sure that was just as akward for him as it was for me..ugggh.. yeah, so then leon called wen he got home and talked to my mom cause he needed a ride to lawson to get dropped off for camp. so this morning my mom wakes me up at 8:00.. grrrr i was not a happy camper... anyways, then we get to leon's house.. music blaring of course, he hasn't finished packing, he can't find his house key, and he's carrying a pizza box upstairs...lol so then we finally get out the door and my mom drives us to the star bucks at lawson and she goes to safeway. around 10:30 we go to the car and meet my mom there, and then we are early for leon's bus and my mom pops into zellers. and me and leon just sat in the car. haha, we have no life.. lol steph. but yeah, then his bus came so i waited with him by the bus for a bit and then he had to like sign in or something so i gave him a quick hug and left. me and my mommy drove home and then i ate something called a breakfast burrito.. yummy! me, amanda, shannon, nick, and nathan went to dq today too and had a cocoa fudge shake. it was soo good and chocolaty cept now i feel really sick....cause i also had a white chocolate mocha for breakfast. haha.. yeah i ate wayy more calories than im supposed to but i really don't care. lol hmmm... then i went to the doller store and frakas and went home. we all sat around doing not a whole lot, shannon left and then i played james bond nightfire (the best game in the world) and played on the computer. now im waititng for dinner. so yeah... not much else to say.. im gunna be bored on the 24 cause amanda's gone, steph is gone to the wedding, and katies gone.. i think.. she might be back on thursday or might just come to the retreat.. i don't know yet. and of course leon's gone till like monday or something... so i have nobody to call randomly at like midnight..lol yeah.. mmmm something smells good!!! bye!! lol

im wrapped up in a fuzzy green blankie

ugg.. i got like 6 hours of sleep, which is bad for me.... anyways. me, erin and katelynn had a sleepover and the dang phone woke us up (katelynn's like uggg mrs. drever...lol)and we like got to bed at 3ish or later..well at least thats the time me and katelynn went to sleep. we watched i am sam last night. it was such a good movie, really sad but i liked it. hmm then leon called and we went on the computer and he showed us this thing and these really freaky faces popped up on the screen. we like all screamed and stuff and i was like gasping for air. and then i had to gotalk to leon and i was too scared to go into a different room on the phone with him cause i thought these scary people were gunna come out. but i got katelynn to turn on the lights for me.... lol anyways, then after leon hung up which was around like 2 something, me and katelynn talked until 3 something.. i was like so out of it..lol but yeah, now we are just sitting here very bored, listning to music. but yeah, im gunna go cause yeah....
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im so grumpy.. grumpy but loveable!

grrrrrr.... im so grumpy. i want sleep but once i wake up i can not go back to sleep. well and y did i wake up? because somebody called me from kfc at 9:08 in the morning. hmm.. wonder who that was? no sarcasm there... lol anyways. im all alone for another half an hour cause nathan is being dropped off at basketball camp today. brrrr now im cold. i made a chocolate strawberry smoothie for breakfast. but its soo good. yeah, k. yesterday in went to a very good church service, it was soo emotional. there was a native woman who gave her testimony and then they did comunion different. everyone came up and got the bread and wine, well i guess grape juice. and then if u need to be prayed for, u could ask someone to pray for u. it was so sad, everyone was like cring and stuff. but it was good. but yeah, then after church i went to mickie dee's with my parents, nathan, austin and daniel (nathan's friends). then i went home and at 6:30 my mom and me picked up leon and we went to see pulse (well not my mom..). and yeah, it was kinda freaky but i loooved it. then we walked to starbucks and we got some coffee. then wen i got home around like 10ish i phoned katelynn and tlkaed for an hour and then i phoned leon and we talked till 12:50ish. then i finally got to bed... ugg and i didn't even get to brush my teeth. but yeah, anyways, im gunna go check katelynn's bloggy and erin, steph, katelynn and my blogspot. yeah.. talk to y'all later.. well actually katelynn today i'll talk to. and probably erin sometime.

im all alone!!! theres no one here beside me!!!!

haha, yeah, im that desperate i've resorted having a title from a song off of shrek. hmmm, yeah i am so bored outof my mind. there's nobody to call either. i called erin, shannons at the ex, katelynn's gone, steph's gone, leon's at work, bethany's in humbolt. oh well, i guess i could..umm... do something with my family? *shiver* hmm maybe not..lol actually i'll probably end up doing something with my lovely brother nathan. or waste away the night (again!) on the computer. yes that sounds good. la la la... so bored. oh well i guess i have a lot on my mind too. ugg... i have to babysit from 6-11 tomorrow.. yay.. oh well i need the cash. i would get a job but not many people )besides fastfood resteraunts (don't laugh at my spelling) hire people at 15 years. i just really need money cause im saving up for insurance deductable and a car. anyways... hmm i always wanted a black volkswagon beetle with a convertable top. but i also like the pontiac solstice. yuppers... well im gunna go upstairs and eat sum taco salad. yummmy, expecially with veggie meat..lol there's always a catch....
haha i used ugly colours

the ex!!!!!

wow. i had sooo much at the ex!!! i went on my first upsidedown ride and i loooved it. i went on all the rides there except the bumper cars and the octopus. i realllly liked the invertor or w/e it was like a ship that like flips u upsidedown and the fireball too. ohh its was soo pretty too. and the fireworks and the elephant ears and everything was just amazing. okay u get it..lol oh one more thing. me and leon wanted to go on this lame ride, it was kinda like a haunted house. it was sooo stupid. all there was lights with like weird things and this random guy saying hi and then leon scared me cause he screamed right at the beggining.. anyways... yeah, i loved the ex and i can't wait for next year. yeah.. so i've spent the day so far babysitting. i made 30 dollers. yay!!! and then i still have to do my piano too. but i better go do something.. maybe eat more..mmmmm....

crazyyyyy

heyy everyone, this is me and stephie poo!!! i feel goot today.. lol steph...anyways, ummm we just saw pirates of the carribean and it was sooooo good! like seriously. u guys should see it. katie we are totally seeing it with u wen it cums out in rainbow. anyways, me and steph love jack sparrow and heres a pic of him.. k bye

lazy me

so anyways, haven't been doin much these days. well i guess its only been a few days since i last posted. yesterday i woke up at like 11:00 which is weird for me cause i usually get up around 8 something. but thats not important. so i beleive i ate some chocolate chip pankcakes (compliments of my father) and then started my day off with a shower. then i went over to leon's after i got ready and he gave me a house key cause im babysitting jack and skittles for the weekend. so yeah, then me and leon went to the mall and then he went to work so my parents and nathan went shopping with me and i bought a new pair of pants, a batman shirt and a yellow bunnyhug. oh i also bought some black licorice thingys. then i went home and chilled out with my brother for a bit and talked on the phone. i ate some watermelon at like midnight and then went to bed around 1:30. this morning i woke up to my brother playing his dumb music and little kids screaming outside..uggghh.. then i read for a bit. and made banana muffins and a smoothie for breakfast. hmm wat else? talked to steph on the phone a bit and here i am still sitting in my pjs and typing. i feel so lazy all the time. my moms like u should go for a jog but im too tired.. oh well i guess thats part of beeing a teenager. haha. yeah... going to the x and im soo excited cause i have only been once. i really like spinny rides. i think my all time favorite ride is the himalayin mountain and u go around in a circle backwards. anyways, im gunna go get some lunch.. even tho its like 3:00.. oh well.
p.s. katie i miss u sooo much!!!!!!
p.s.s. it was kents birthday on the second.. i forgot tomention that... i think.. oh well even if i did i'll mention it again..haha

more sleepy...z....

okay so maybe i called my other blog entry the wrong name. i am wayy more tired than before. and im kinda dizzy, oh well im just over tired. and y am i over tired u ask? well...last night steph came over at ithink 4:45 ish and we went in my room and pretty much trashed the place. and then leon called and i talked tohim for a bit cause he was really bored. me and steph also went to blockbuster to rent a movie and also to oldnavey because i wanted a new pair of sweats. so anyways, then we had some dinner and leon came over. all we did was like get really hyper and then we went on the trampoline which was sorta dangerous cause leon kept making me and steph fly all around the trampoline. so then we got this crazy idea to go to the park and swing or something. so i told my mom and surprisingly she said yes. so anyways, we went to the park and leon pushed me and steph of the tire swing and then we played an intense game of grounders. then we just sat in the grass and watched shooting stars for awhile and then we umm ran home sorta cause leon had one shoe on for some reason. anyways....so then we went downstairs wen we got to my house and it was about 11:40pm by this time. we just hit eachother with pillows and stuff and then we drove leon home. after that me and steph could finally have a girls night (plus my brother was away and so was my dad). so we started off by watching the notebook (my all time favorite movie) and ate lots of popcorn and iced tea and suckers and yeah.. lol so then we talked for a bit and got to bed around 4 ish. all of a sudden the phone rang, again and again. i thought i was dreaming but i wasn't. it was my dad calling at 7 in the morning to talk to my mom. i was sooo mad..anyways. then i went back to sleep and got woken up again by steph's ringtone. that means its time to wake up...uggghh... it was 20 to 10 and i was soo tired. so then steph'smom rings the doorbell and i answe it and talk to her for awhile and then steph leaves. the i notice my brothers home and say hi and he ells me everything about his trip. sounds like he had a fun time. so anyways, then i was going downstairs to watch the great raid with nathan but i spill my cup of orange juice all over the carpet.. i was like uggggggggggggggggggggghhh.. not only was i tired but now i have to get out the stupid carpet cleaner thingy and wash the dang carpet.. oh well it was my clumsy fault. so the i watchedpart of the movie and i noticed my brother was asleep so i started cleaning up. then i pretty much cleaned up from me and steph's sleepover. then i had a shower, cleaned my earring and then got dressed. and here i am. and now im hungry cause all i've eaten was some dry shreddies.

sleepy

im so tired today.... and it's only 8:45.. oh well... so anyways to summer ize wats been happening to me the last few days..i have been hanging out with shannon and leon mostly. we played video games one night and then went to starbucks another time. umm then on friday i went with my mom to the mall and got my ear pierced at clairs. apparently you arn't supposed to do it with a gun and they did but w/e... anyways, then i went to leon's for dinnner and we watched a movie called constantine which i've seen before. and i learned that leon doesn't eat meat, thats definatly on big difference between us. i loooove my meat! haha. then yesterday... oh yeah! shannon, and erin and leon were gunna cum over cept erin got sick so she couldn't cum but tessa came over. we all jumped on the trampoline and then me, shannon and leon played james bond and tessa played the sims 2. then tessa had to go and shannon followed shortly after. anothony came to pick leon up and me and leon played on the computer and anthony and my dad had races on need for speed. i have a feeling my dad got his butt kicked!lol. so then i got to bed around 1ish. this morning i went to church and sat with steph, kristin, and jenelle. then afterwards me, steph, leon and colton went out for lunch. then we headed back to my place and hung out for a bit. uggh im so tired i keep falling asleep...oh well.. so anyways, then colton left to hang out with this brendan kid and steph left to go to warman so me and leon had dinner and then i cleanedup and we threw a ball around with my dog and then anthony picked leon up. now im sleepy and also trying to watch this movie about world war 2. anywho....

lonely as ever

im soo lonely and bored.. my brother is going to calgary for a week or so, katelynn, steph, and erin are at camp and i don't get my kitty. apparently we are not ready for a cat. leon has my bunny now. i went over to see howw he was doing. he meaning the bunny.. haha. so me and shannon went over to leons and the bunny was under his bed so we had tolift off his mattresses to get the bunny out. then we put him in a smaller cage in the living room. i hope jack will be okay. he looked so scared!! i know leon will take really good care of him though. so yeah... anyways i need someone to call me!!

la la la...

im so bored again. i actually did something today.. haha. umm i woke up at 5:30 am this morning!! ugggghhh. im wayyyyy over tired. the reason for this unfortunate event is because all my family except for me, my brother, and mom and dad left our house 2 go back where they live, which is monument, colorado. yeah, so yesterday me and my cousins and nathan went shopping. i ended up buying a hedband from lululemon for some reason cause i don't even like head bands, oh well.. and i got some gallaz shoes from west 49, which are so cool. they are the slip on canvas shoes and they have an army pattern on them with tiny pink hearts, pretty sweet if u ask me and they were only 30 dollers. wat a bargain..lol. anyways, oh yeah we stopped in frakas for awhile. i love that store cept its sooo expensive. i saw this realllly cute white dress in there and i tried it on and i was like i'm buying this, except i looked on the price tag and it was 98 dollers!!! yikesss... yeah. so today i went to my brothers orthodontist appointment at 11:15. went to the university huskies store and bought some sweats, and then went to winners. didn't buy anything there. umm wat else? oh yeah, then i came home and did piano.. wow, i haven't practiced in awhile and i should be cause im doing my grade 9 exam in january. then i gave my bunny a bath cause im taking him over to leon's house cause hes gunna take care of him now.. which means i get bubbles today!! yay. so i get 2 sleep in the basement for awhile with her cause my mom thinks she'll get lonely and cum upstairs which my mom doesn't want. yuppers. oh if ur wondering who bubbles is she is steph's kitty. so tonight after dinner me and my mom, dad and nathan are going to petland to pick up some stuff for the kitty and the bunny and then going over to leon's to give him the bunny and pick up my fish finally! i miss my patrick!! lol yeah, i get pretty attached to my fishy. then leon's probably coming over to hang out for awhile or w/e. man nobodys here and my brothers going to visit his friend in AB tomorrow for a long time. oh well steph will be home soon... kinda... crap g2g my mom said i have chores to do.. yay...
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bored to death

yeah... im so bored. my family (2 aunts, 2 uncles, gramma and grandpa and 3 cusins) are here from the states. so far we have gone to the lake and then we came home yesterday. now everyone is here and its all crazy. its nice to have my family here though i guess. haven't done much today. i went to church today. i represented the owen household. katelynn, erin, rachel, sam, amy, steph and sara were at church so i wasn't alone. i find it hilarious that no guys were there. it made me sad tho.. oh well. then me and my cuzins chilled out at home for awhile, then my cusin christina drove us to vhq and tried to find a movie but forgot my dad's card so we went to frakas, which we found out was closed. so then our last resort: the doller store!!! yay!! haha. we bought a balloon for my brother so he could suck the helium and make funny sounds.. haha we also got gummy worms and mood rings. yummmmy! now we are home and my cusin christopher has just arrived with his girlfriend. hmm now wat to do wat to do? everyone is gone too... katelynn, steph, erin, ellen, shannon... the list goes on and on... oh well... i guess i could always hangout with leon cause shes bored too.. he took care of my fish while i was gone. he didn't kill it! yay!! haha. speaking of which i have topick ny fish up after supper. uggggh katelynn is gunna be gone for like 3 weeks...*tear* haha. better go...

back again..

i know i already posted for today but i decided to do it again. im just sad/jealous/mad/confused. okay first of all im sad and jealous because katelynn and erin and steph, my like bestest friends, are all going to camp.. and im not. and im gunna miss them so much cause i can't see them in like 2 weeks. and im mad cause my dad got really mad at me for talking on the phone too much which i guess i can understand.. i think. and im confused cause.. im always confused. so yeah.. im sooo bored!! hmmm wat else can i say about my life.. ummmmmmmm i dunno. well i cam say that its 10:52 and i have till 10:56 on the computer and i have to clean up dutch blitz.. oh thats wat i can talk about. dutch blitz! i looooove that game its insane and soo fun. me and katelynn and steph play full body contact dutch blitz hahaha... sooo fun. ummmm yeah thats about it.. well i guess i might as well check my email again since i only have 2 more minutes.. so yeah.. k bye

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im going!!

okay well i will be gone as of sunday... then i will be back the following sunday and i will be soo sad cause katelynn and steph and erin and ellen are all going to camp.... booohoooo.. my cuzins will be here tho so i guessi won'tbe alone but i will still miss u guys. yeah so that kinda sucks and then im here the whole rest of the summer with my new kitty!!! yay!! if u are wondering wat im talking about wellll.. i get to have stephs kitty named bubbles so if any of u wanna cum over and see it, when it getshre then yeah..shes sooo cute!! yeah, we will probably get her wen i get back on sunday or maybe on friday so steph can say goodbye to bubbles but yeahhh. well i just wanna say that i'll miss u all!!!! today me, katelynn, keith, leon, steph and kent went to see over the hedge.. it was soooo funny. i have to say that hammy the squirrel reminds me of keith or maybe even my brother.. oh speaking of which my brother and stephs brother came 2. yay..lol actuallyit wasn't that bad. i think... haha yeah anywaysssss... i better go for now. probably hanging with kent, leon and steph tomorrow.

breaking up...

okay.. today was umm very interesting. last nght i had "the talk" with my parents about leon. and i think they were a little more comfortable well maybe not i think they just understoof me better. so anyways. so i went tobed at 12:04 last night. yeah i know thats weird thatiknow the exact time.. its just something i do.. but yeah. k then this morning i woke up at 8 and read diary of an anorexic girl till 9:30. then i read my bible.. which i haven't done in awhile..but i came accross this thing where it said that u need to be in love with God first before a boy. and i just thought hmmm.... theni came accross soo many things about putting ur relationship with God first than a boy and i was like.. i know what i have to do.. i have to break up with leon. my mom came into my room and was like okay grace.. im gunna tell u my last opinion on ur relationship with leon.. so she made her point about that im too young and w/e. and i sat there sobbing.. she didn't know that tho.. then i guess she noticed i wasn't talking, so she was like are u okay and i just collapsed into her arms and she held me and just let me cry. and i exlpained what had happened while reading my bible so yeah, then she said well how are u gunna break up with him.. i was so scared i didn't say anything for awhile. finally my mom said that she would drove me over to lynn and tonys house this afternoon so i could talk to him. so i phoned steph and broke down and told her wat was up i was soo upset. and she said she would cum with me.. not like be there right beside me but cum into the house with me. so my plan wen i called leon was that i needed to talk to him and steph was bored so she was gunna cum..so then i phoned katleynn and she said she would sit in the car with my mom while i did.. well.. wat i needed to do . so then i called leon back cause he called earlier. so i prayed to God that i wouldn't start sobbing wen i called leon and that he would give me strength and to help me to know wat to say. so then i called him and i told him i was gunna cum over at 2. so then my mom picke up katelynn and then steph came over and we played dutch blitz.. but i was too paraniod to do anything. then it was 1:45 and we left.. nobody spoke in the car.. we just listned to the radio. i was praying the entire way there and i just felt this calmness, which lasted until i got into leon's house and noticed tyler was there too. me and steph sat down on the couch and leon was just going around the house and then he sat in a chair and i was like steph i need to talk to u, so i pulled her into the kitchen and i was like i dunno wat im gunna do and steph calmly said im gunna go get leon.. i was like fine. so shes like leon, grace wants to talk to u. so he came into the kitchen and he's like maybe we should go into the basement.i was like yeah.. so we sat on the couch facing eachother. and we were silent.. there was a nervous laugh.. i was like okay... wat am i gunna say first.. then leon said .. u know i know wat ur gunna say, u may as well just say it. so i told him wat happened and he said he was expecting this sooner and i was like ohh. so then he asked me questions like wat my parents thought and i said my dad doesn't know but my moms kinda relieved i gues.. and then he asked me if this was the end of the relationship and i said... well i don't know.. for now we need to be friends. but if God wants us to be together.. he will make it happen..just at the right time. so then i asked him if he was okay and he said yeah.. then he said that i better goif my moms here.. and i said okay.. then just as i was walking out of the baske ment he hugged me and said the if i need to talk or anything to just call and i said i will. soo yeah, that was my whole breaking up experience and yeah, there were tears and pain but im strong and i know that God can help me through this. i feel sooooo much better. i can be a kid again, i can be myself and yeahh.. so ne, steph and katie got ice cream and then came home and played dutch blitz for real and now im sitting here with steph and katie's reading a book of mine. but yeah.. all in all i feel good and im glad i did it. and i have God to thank for helping me be strong.

sick...

well lynnette.. u were right. i do have bronchitis! i don't feel any better even since i have taken the medication the doctor gave me.. actually its made me feel worse casue it gave me a stomach ache. oh well, hopefully me getting sick won't ruin my weekend. on saturday i'm leaving to candle lake with my family and we are meeting me aunt nikki and uncle chuck (my mom's brother) and their kids.. my only girl cusins!! and also my mom's parents. they all live in the states so i haven't seen them in a longgg time.. like 8 yrs! so i think i'll have a really fun time with them. haven't done much today.. ummm went to coop with my mom to pick up a few groceries and then to costco to pick up two rolls of film. then we went to dutch growers to have coffee with katelynn and her mom. hah.. it was kinda funny cause my mom and katelynn's mom sat on the complete opposite side of the cafe. i think they even talked more than us.. which is hard to do! lol.. yeah. so anyways, me and katelynn mostly talked about leon and keith.. and just stuff.. haha. yeah then we ordereda big cinomen bun and an italian soda..it was soooo good! after that i hadto go to my doctor's appointment, where i got diagnosed woth stupid bronchitis. and i like half lost my voice too so i sound really weird.. umm then i went home and watched tv for a bit, cleaned my room. umm talked to steph cause she got back from calgary and then leon called.. or maybe i called him? i forget..lol and oh yeah.. k this morning leon called.. ididn't answer the phone, my brother did. and i was just listning to the convo.. so yeah, anyways leons like can i talk to mrs. owen? i was like ohhhhh wow.. so i just hang up. and my mom talks to him for like 8 minutes and im kinda freaking out upstairs trying to busy myself with putting on a shirt..lol so then my mom gets off the phone and she's like guess who was on the phone and she said leon.. and i acted all surprised at this.. and she said that he called to apologize.. i was soo confused.. y would he apologize? so my mom said that before he asked me out he didn'tknow i wasn't allowed to date and then after he did of caourse heknew causei told him. and he felt badand yeah.. kinda hard 2 explain but yeahh.. so anyways umm so later that afternoon i called him or he called me and i was like sooo u called my mom.. lol and yeah.. hekinda explained wat my mom said..and hes like yeah,ur mom invited me for dinner.. i was like ohhh kay... ahh.. i mean i have no problem with that. but i was like weirded out kinda.. i dunno y but yeah, so i was like well u probably can't cum over for a bit cause i have bronchitis now and i wouldn't want u toget it.. so yeah, then we pretty much talked about wat we did that day (he spent the whole day with tyler at the arcade.. how fun..) and then my mom said i had 2 cum for dinner. yup...and then i had dinner.. and my stomach hurt and i feel like puking and its scary cause im all alone in my dark basement and its thundering and lightning outside.. lol.. actually im not scared at all.. haha. so tomorrow steph and herbrother are coming over and im finally gettingmy hair restreaked after like a year. so yeah, thats pretty much wats happened in the last 24 hours.

cRaZyNeSs

yeah.. this week has been um crazy. k like on wednesday, me and katelynn, leon and colton went to a movie.. the devil wears prada. it was really good..lol. yeah so anyways... we went into the theatre and found a place 2 sit. 3/4 way thru the movie colton'slike can we leave? me and katelynn want to sty but katelynn gives colton money to buy us popcorn. so he comes back with popcorn smothered in dill pickle seasoning salt.. ewwwwwwww..haha. so we watch the rest of the movie. after the movie we walk to the entrance of the mall and we walk over 2 family pizza because Colton works there and is hungry. so we walk over there and i call my mom and im like can u pick us up at family pizza.. shes like okay..w/e so me and katelynn and leon are standing outside family pizza while colton is getting his pizza. leon has his arm around me and after like ten minutes my dad cums.. andn he sees leon with him arm around.. i was like omg omg omg he is going to shoot me. so me and katelynn jump in the car and pretend like nuthings wrong. so we drop off katelynn at her house and my dad is silent the whole way home.. we go past my school, and hes like u know, it wasn't a surprise.. i knew u were lying the whole time. i just kept my head down..then we got home.. i ran out of the car and sat down at the bar on my kitchen. my moms like how was the movie.. i was like uhhh good. she imedialty realizes that somethings wrong.. she asks wat was wrong, im silent, she asks if something happened, i shook my head, she asks if its sumthing i did, i nodded, my head still down. then i start crying. she said tell me whats wrong.. i just cry and my dad says harshly why don't u tell her grace or do u want me to. i just sit there. and my dad said leon had his arm around grace and they have been dating! i was like this is the end. so yeah.. my mom just sits there and calmley says u need 2 go up 2 ur room. so i did and i just started sobbing. i say God! why did i do this!? i like leon soo much but y? i give up..i give up.. i give up! u take care of this mess lord.. i know that u can fix it. so then i sat in my fuzzy green chair and cried..then my mom said that she is going 2 the store with my dad and brother.. i was like okay.. Katelynn calls me and i explain what happened she just tells me its gunna be okay but she didn't know what to say.. i know.. i didn't know wat 2 say either.she said leon is really worried... then magically steph calls and she didn't know anything thats just happened so i tell her. then leon calls and i just spill the story to him to and he tells me that i can start everything in the relationship and that if i don't feel comfortable with anything then to tell him and yeah.. it was soo sweet and hes like grace i really care about u.. awwwwww....lol. so yeah. anyways..i feel a little better. then my parents cum home and then we have a "talk". yeah.. i won't go into detail about the talk but yeah..she mostly said she was dissapointed in me and stuff about my friends and yeahh.. so my grounding was that i couldn't see my youth friends for 1 month..ugggghh this sucks. like i love my other friends too but i love my youth friends a lot 2. so yeah, i went to bed and in the morning m mom and me talked more and i ssaid aren't u gunna ban me from seeing him and she said no, ur old enough to take care of wat your gunna do about this. yeahh. so ive been talking to everyone by phone right now.. well yesterday i got to go to shannons for a sleepover. and i got home this morning andwent straight to these peoples house 2 meet their kids to babysit. and i got home and my mom said leon called at like 10 last night and then sum guy named brett called u this morning.. i was like brett?? y would brett call me?? then i thought of last night wen tyler called me.. haha. so now im sitting at home.. nathan's at a riders game in regina today so im like spending the day by myself..yay. yeahh.. call me............
<3 gracie =")


<-----srry i just have to include this pic.. it reminds me of katelynn or steph...haha

call me....

im sooo bored...lol omg i had soo much fun on the weekend with steph, and katelynn and her family. we wakeboarded and tubed soo much. i also got um a nasty sunburn on my legs and face. haha funny pic of me and steph and katelynn in our california shorts. yeah..haha me and steph sang songs in our tent till like 4:00am on saturday ahahahha.. we were sooo tired and nature woke us up at 4:30 am on sunday..there were fireworks on canada day and we got ice cream. umm i won't go into detail and bore u to death but yeah, it will be a weekend i will never forget. well the best part was on the friday we got there. at around 7:30 the sun was setting and me and katelynn and steph decided to go down to the beach. we just walked along the sand and talked and it was sooo nice. yeah, then today islept in till 10 and then went toa movie with katelynn, her cuz (in grade7) derek and nikki (her sis) and her mom.. hah we saw r.v. it wasn't that bad actually.. oh sooo pumped for pirates of the carribean 2!!! cums out on friday. yay!! yeah, now im just extremly bored.. waiting for anyone to call me.. talked to shannon, steph, and katelynn already tho.. oh i forgot to call leon..well more or less waiting cause hes at work till 5.. maybe hes home?? i dunno.. hah just asked my mom if i could get msn back and she said ask again on the weekend. i reeeeeeelly want it back..oh well.. so bored....
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p.p.s. kent has a red mohawk.. lol

all done

it feels sooo good to be done school! ihad my last exam (christian ethics) on umm friday.. ang yeah. oh plus im on the honor roll!!! yeah i know im a nerd.. but katelynn is a nerd to. sorry buddy just wanted to mention that..lol so yup.. on friday i don't even remember what i did..oh yeah! i was babysitting till 8:30 and then i went to leon's for a "bbq".. which it really wasn't and yeah. there was me, katie, keith, steph, leon, colton, carly, tyler, and rachel. we pretty much just watched hollow man 2 which was pretty good actually and then yeah, my dad picked me and steph and katie up and dropped us off at stephs to have a sleepover. me and steph drank sum water at like 3:30 and probably got tobed around four..lol katie was asleep by like 2..haha.. poor katie. pillow!!! haha ..srry insider.. yeah. umm then katie's mommy picked me and her up from stephs in the morning and brought us to the church cause we had to practise our offeratory song. we did soo good on it!!! then me and steph and leon and kenton (now he calls me gracon..lol) were supposed to go to see nacho libre.. but we didn't and yeah, so that sucks.. but we ended upgoing to dq, blockbuster, going on the trampoline and then playing keepaway for like an hour and a half..i was sooo tired after that! then on sunday i had to get up bright and early to do offeratory in the first service. so yeah, then me and colton and katelynn hung out on the grass eating puffed wheat squares (yummmmm) and then we went inside to go to church. then yeah.. lol... anyways.. k.. yeah me and katie and steph went tothe drop in and worked the early shift which wasn't that bad and then and katie, then me and carly and rachel and leanne were "chillin" in the prayer room and then i talked to leon for a bit and then we all played gargoyle and icut my leg..not too bad tho.. and yup so now im here soooooo bored cause i can't call katie or steph or anyone well icould call shannon i guess.. lol but yeah all those people are writing finals or sleeping probably.. yeah..lol peace out as shannon would say.. hah luv yu all lotss!!
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untitled...lol

woah, i haven't writtin or i guess typed for awhile. well i did end up going to kent's on that friday, which was soooo much fun. we played keep away. anyways. on last friday i had the grad banquet which was soo much fun. at our table there was me, steph, carly, keith, rachel, leon, colton and jeff, oh and this other guy..named sumthing..i don't remember! yeah so we had dinner and dessert.. then me and steph changed into casual clothing...pants..lol. and then we uhh kinda helped clean up and i mainly just broke things.. haha. yeah then me and steph waited with leon and colton and there un-named friend, until steph's parents came to pick us up. On saturday morning my family departed for our cabin (3hrs away) and yeha. i hate car rides!!! lol especially with my bro haha. anyway then we got to the cabin and from saturday till sunday it was raining hard core.. i did go fishing for like 20 min. then i got rained on.. poor me..lol. then on the glorious monday (lol) we got to take the boat out and wakebooard, and tube to our hearts content! lol i did sum seriously good wakeboarding i must say..lol. yeah and this morning unfortunalty i had to wake up to go tomy social final..uggghh. then afterwards i wentto shannons house and we played sims 2 university and now im hear, supposedly studying formy english final tomorrow. well i better go acutally study.. yeah right!
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waiting....

im waiting for dinner, im sooooo hungry! im waiting for youth.. im spiritually hungry? yeah..okay... iwonder if we will go in the pool at kent's? i also wonder what tank top i should wear... a pink one or a green one? I wonder if I should wear my hair down or in piggy tails? I wonder if Im gunna get to youth on time, cause my dad's not home yet? these are random things that are popping into my head at the moment... yeah.. these past few days have been depressing for one reason or another, one of the reasons is the weather, rain makes it depressing....
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well today has been a thinking day.. i wrote katelynn a longgg note about what i was thinking about... i doubt anyone besides katelynn is reading this anyways so i won't spill all the juicy details about the note..lol. today is my last piano lesson!!!! lol i'm soo excited for this weekend. On friday im going to kent's for a pool party and then on saturday im going to kristin's grad b-day. welllllllllll, i have to make it short.
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its my birthday!!!

Happy birthday to me! lol i am now 15 years old! i can't wait for my party (7 pm). Youth was so much fun last night. We played mission impossible. The sponsers drove us blindfolded and dropped us off in willow grove, then drove away. We had to walk back to the church and also bring sundae toppings.Then we got back to the church (i got lost and was by myself but found my way back) and we got sundae's and birthday cake (compliments of me)! Trent read us a story called you are special, then we did bible study and me and kent sat onthe tables and got pennys, and oreos thrown at us..lol. After youth, Sara, steph, there two cousins, kristin, kaite, kent, and me and bethany went to timmys and tthen me and beth went home and stayed up till like 2 ish. Then today tyff came over at 11 and we went shopping with nathan at midtown, i also got to open my mom/dad's, nathan's and my gramma/grandpa's gifts. My grandparents and parents got me sooo much clothes from garage and my brother got me a necklace from backside boardshop. I opened bethany's present. She got me a shirt from bluenotes and one from garage. Ididn't buy anything at midtown, well i did buy some french fries..lol. Oh yeah, i was just checking my email and i remembered keith got me a b-day present. He burned me his chris tomlin live cd!!! lol i looove it. He also sent me a happy b-day message to my email. U gotta love keith. can't wait to see u all tonight!
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YC part: deux..lol

<--- This is for me and u katie..lol. soo yeah. Well i left off on Sunday morning... well i guess saturday night. I was exhausted that night and yeah.. i was super weird..lol! Anyways...umm Sunday morning i think i ate poptarts and chocoltae milk.. again! and then we waited for a longggggggg time. Then me, katie, steph, and leon piled into lynn's car and drove to the rexal place (a.k.a. stadium thingy.. lol) and i slept the entire way. When we got there, miles talked again, and tree 63 did worship.. yay worship! okay that was random...and then we had sessions again. I decided to skip alllll the workshop thingies and go to all concerts..yay me..lol im such a rebel.. not. so yeah, we went to barlow girl (i was gunna fall asleep) except they played never alone which was pretty sweet! then me, stpeh and katelynn met up with kent, keebo and leon. We went tostellar kart again! except we went into the mosh pit. we totally went crazy andyah, it was sooooooooooooooo much fun. That was my favorite part of the whole trip. Then we went to get drinks which were soo gross cause they were flat. After the drinking inccident lol we went to kj52 but we were so bored sowe went to sit on the grass and throw grass..and get bananas chucked at me! not fun by the way.. yeah then we went to rexal place and miles talkedone last time, tree 63 did worship and then the sweeet news boys concert. man at first i was like okay.. like my mom like listens to the newsboys, but it wasn't that bad! i actually loved it. Then me , katie, kent, keebo, steph, leanne, rachel anddddd joel went into the emmanual bus which was.. umm.. weird. Firstmeand steph were sitting by these weird guys who were swearing.. quite badly.. and then we went towendy's for dinner and all the ebenezer people sattogether.. hheehehehehehe... lol then yeah.. we drove a long way. iwas exhausted. i was sitting everywhere, trying to sleep, but not succeding. so me, leanne and katie petted kents hair.. well mostly katie did..lol then i sat on kent and kevin but these people told me 2 get off because they were trying to watch the movie..iwas like okay. So yeah. We FINALLY got to the church and brian picked us up and me, leanne, rachel and kent oh and keebo, tried sleeping..but we were so tired we couldn't sleep (is that possible?) So we all played the piano. Then the slowpokes came..lol and i got home at 1:30 got to bed at 2 and slept till 12!! yay.. and im still sooooooooo tired. Well i have a band concert at 6:30 soibetter go get pretty, wait i already am..lol byebye.. oh yeah my birthday is on saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol

YC: part uno

First all i have to say is HOLY COW! i had soo much fun at yc. I won't put everything into detail but I might have to make two blog enteries..lol! We arrived at Yc around i dunno 7:00. There were sooo many people. We got fairly good seats, they were kinda high up on the side, but they had a jumbotron to see everything on. So anyways, theres a guy called mike love who talked to us for awhile, then a guy called bob stromberg. They kinda talked but mostly said what would be happening this weekend. Then a guy (yes there were lots of guys..lol!) named Miles Mc Phearson, he was a formal nfl player and he kinda did the "sermon" thing. Iwas like oh great, but he was amazing! at one point he was describing this person who is a believer, but kinda stuck in the mud..thats kinda what i feel like right now. I want to get closer to God and i feel like i'm in a standstill with my faith. Aftermiles did this amazing talk, there was worship with tree 63, which was VERY emotional.. right katelynn!? lol then there was a sweeeeet audio adrenaline concert. we stayed at a chinese baptist church, which wasn't that bad. I slept in a library... haha! then we got to bed like i dunno 1:30. Then in the morning we (steph, katie and me) got muffins and chocolate milk! we drank 3 litres of chocolate milk! Then we went back to the stadium thingy and miles talked again and tree 63 did worship. Then we started sessions. The first one everyone wanted togotowas called, love, lust and acne: teenage love, isn't it great? lol hahahahha. But unfortunalty it was full so we had to go to this other one about pressure, which was kinda boring. Then i went to steller kart with leanne, rachel, keith, steph, and katie. I loooooveeeee stellar kart!! anyways, then somehow, me and steph got seperated from the group and we decided to go to hawk nelson. luckily somehow we found leon, keebo, and kent. then we stayed for pillar with them for awhilebut i wasn't feeling good so we went and feed cheesies to seagulls on top of the 15 seater. aww... i miss jim bob! lol.. anyways.... yeah, then we had dinner.. i think we had like chicken and cole slaw and stuff like that. Then we went back to the stadium thing. Miles talked again and tree 63 did worship and there was a tfk concert which was soo cool. I had never heard of them before but i love them now, although not as much as stellar kart. Well im gunna tell u more later so bye bye for now and stay tuned for yc:part 2!!!
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i can't believe it...

i was downloading music from the yc website and God just told me odeleate all the songs that wern't christian in my windows media player...i did deleate tham all.. i can't explain how i feel..

yay!

i'm so excited for yc (by the way my dad's not comin.. tony's driving) !! so yeah.. we are leaving 8:30am this friday, and we will be back at 1:30 am (yes a.m.!!) on monday. I'm gunna be so tired.. i bet i'll stay home the morning of monday from school to catch up on sleep. So far sum of the people comin are umm me, katie, steph, rachel, colton, leon, kevin, kent, sammy, tony, lynnette, erica, and trent!! lol yeah.. got to love his sunlgasses.. lol. Today i babysat for 5 hrs and now i'm sooo tired and tonight we are working on the yard after pizza (yumm) and the tomorrow we are going to church and then going to ellen's for lunch with the newton'sonday ithink wemight be going up to our cabin.. well my dad's boss' cabin that he's letting us use for the summer. On friday i went to my friend bailey's house with these 3 other people from my social class and we had to do a skit. It wasn't actually that bad..we were doing this scene with a ken doll and we were throwing into a lake pond thingy with a string on it sowe could pull it out and bailey accidently let go of the string and so we spent like 30 minutes finding random objects to pull it out.. we eventually got it out.. well erin did yay erin!! lol so yeah thats about it. Last night at youth we talked about rights. Like what rights jesus gave up for saving us. Its amazing ho0w many rights we take for granted..really. we went into small groups.. in mine there was Kristin, Steph, Lynn, Sara and this girl from vti or something along the lines of that. Ther was acutally a lot of people at youth.. wel defienbaker drive came too. I haven't really met any of them yet. But yeah.. they're comin to yc with us. well i better go.. pizza's here...

I'm back!

lol.. i guess i have been so stressed the last couple of weeks and now im back tomy normal relaxed, fun, loving self. My theory exam went really well actually and ummm what else? well this weekend of friday i did a variety night performance and it went realllllly good! i was so happy. Then i went to youth at around 9:30 and we did bible quizzing. Then on Saturday i had my big exam from 9:30 till 12:30, after my exam my mom and me went out and had lunch together which was nice because rarely do i get to spend time with my mom alone! Then we went shopping and got a really cute top for my piano recital, some capris, and bikini. After some lovely shopping we went home and i practiced piano. We went to the weibs house for caregroup and we had lotssss of food! Then i had to leave and babysit from 7:30 till 9:30... yay! moneyyyy...i need some more for yc.. which i am soo pumped about! its goin to be so fun, a weekend with all my favorite buddies! Anyways, sunday iwent to sunday school/church, then me, my brother, Katelynn, and my parents went out for ice cream. Oh yeah, Katie had her first banana split! lol. Yeah umm then we hung out, and now im waiting to go to the drop-in..

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p.s. the pic is kent in mexico..lol

heres the song i'm listning to:
spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

so stressed!!!!

heyy.. its 10:01 right now...oh wait.. 10:02 pm.. im so tired. I just got back from a long day at school, a track meet (which we proudly got fourth in) and variety night.. which didn't go as well as i planned but i did good. Right now i am stressed out of my mind! i have this big write up thingy due tomorrow which im a quarter done.. thats watim supposed to be doing now.. and then tomorrow i have andother variety night performance and then my moms now making skip youth tomorrow to study for a HUGE theory test on saturday..plus i have to do a big project with a group that can't even get together and i'm the one stuck making the script because for some reason or another everyone in my group can't talk and their like not creative..*sigh* im soo tired......................................God give me the strength to focus!!!! i dunno what i should do.. i mean i love being invlolved in everything.. and i mean everything but right now my head is going to explode! Im so mentally tired too!! uggggggg..... i am not in a good mood right now... 10:06 hmm.. well i better get going on my homework for tomorrow..

miss busy

yo.. well today was veryy long and i just wanted to get home..i can't wait for the summer..and well for yc too! cept for the fact that my daddy might be coming..blahh...well i talked to him adnd he said he would talk to mike and see if somebody else could drive instead of him.. and srry katie but u don't need a special liscence to drive a 15 passenger, nice try tho..lol. Unfortunatly if nobody else can drive then I guess i will have to put up with my father being on like the highlight trip of my whole year! yeah.. school was okay.. on of my friends keeps saying she's depressed and Im worried about her.. shes always worried about something, shes kinda umm immature? and shes not a social butterfly if u know what i mean..im one of the very few friends she has and she one of my best buddys. a few days ago she said that she was comin to centenial and now shes bumed out cause they decided not to do japanese and thats like her favorite thing in the whole world.. i love her to pieces and she like the sweetest girlsyou'd ever meet.. but i just worry about her sometimes becasue people get a different impression than i did when i met her because we were in grade 7 and i was all weird cause i just moved here.. but yeah. She feels like nobody loves her.. and thats not true! I tried telling her about God but she won't cum to youth because she thinks everyone doesn'tlike her and her anime shows are on at like 10:30 or something.. so next time i bring her to youth can u guys do a BIGGGGGGG favor? just reach out to her and let her know you enjoy being around her (only if you do) since katelynn is probably the only one reading this im sure u know who im talking about...
is flirting wrong if your not allowed to date?
should i just go out with someone even if i'm not allowed?
doilike him because im desperate?
does he like me?
does he like me for who i am or justwhat i look like?
who does God have picked out for me!?!?!?!
these are a few of the many random questions that are going thru my head right now..im just so confused sometimes and im one of those people that just wants to know whats happeneing...<3>

Wow...

Heyy peoples! i have beenhaving an amazing week so far. Well first of all Im getting bumped up (yay!!) to the faster team in track cause my coach says im really good. I have an 86 average in English.. which i thought would be more like a 75..lol and also im actually reading my bible everyday (remeber its all of ephesians katie!).. but today i was kinda depressed.. i dunno why but in fourth i didn't even talk.. i sat in my desk, did my work and walked out.. it was kinda weird because one of my friends next to me was being sorta umm loudish and it was really immature.. so i kinda got to be on the listning side for once. It made me realize how much I have calmeddown over this year.. i used to be always hyper and loud and obnoxious and totally out of control, but now i actually slow down a bit and breathe..Im sooo busy this week with Variety night (cum see me 7:00 on thursday or friday at my school), i have a 3 hr theory exam on saturday and of course my social life..lol..yeah.. thats not going to well..at school i feel some of my friends.. meaning one or 2.. care.. like really care about me.. the rest could be like oh grace is gone.. when did that happen? so yup.. thats that. Im scared realllllly bad too! im scared about going to centennial. Im not sure if i should change one of my electives so Im not too stressed cause im in all enriched classes. i guess i just have to keep praying that God will show me what classes I should take. man oh man.. i miss u guys at youth...its so hard at school because nobody understands..everyonethinks my lifes okay.. and i mean it is.. but theres so much stuff that bothering me and growing up is hard..esepcially beingthe oldest in your family..oh speaking of which.. uggg my dad is proabbly gunna drive one o fhte buses to alberta on yc..i REALLLLLY don't want that to happen.. its not like i don't want my dad to like see me doing bad stuff...its just .. hes my DAD!!! its like taking yur parents to camp with u..this was my three day weekend to be alone with my friends..i feel so selfish..but it bothers me a lot. Yeah... Wat else is going on?? well theres this guy at school who supposedly likes me.. he says he doesn't but does nothing when his friends say mean stuff about me and him.. i don't even like the kid and my friends always make me sit beside him in forth and it REALLLY makes me uncomfortable.. ii really don't like this kid.. i dunno wat to do.. we don't have a seating plan and yeah.. it sucks..well i will stop writing all my worries/joys/troubles and stuff so yeah. i love you guys and im gunna be late for youth on friday

*yawn*

i am sooo tired! last night was sooo funny though. Colton and Kent and my Katelynn came over (wow actually spelled ur name right..lol)! it was soo fun.. we watched a movie again.. we were SUPPOSED to watch robinhood men in tights but they brought goldmember..ugg i hate that movie..so we watched school of rock. Katie left halfway through the movie cause she went to visit her grandpa. (yay hes home! God please keep Katie's grandpa stay healthy and safe. Thanks for bringing him home to his family) So it was just me Colton and Kent. Then we watched the rest of the movie, ate chips and they drank the pop.. lol. Then we went upstairs and talked to my dad about Kents job, when hes moving, church and yeah.... then i kicked them out. Then umm i watched mars attacks but got sooo tired, then went to bed... and here I am. Well i have to go eat something before I go to church. I have soo much stuff to do after church. anyways.. i g2g.. luv u as always

at katie's

heyy everyone.. im at kaitlynn's right now.. so tired.. lol Well last night was a blast. I went to youth at 7 for slt (student leadership team) and nobody showed up and then colton and kent and kristin showed up.. oh and graham..lol anyways... we prayed then a bunch of people showed up..my erin came home!!!! and umm we did the amazing race.. i was in a car with kristin, steph, sarah, monique and poor matt. me and steph were waving at hott guys in trucks..lol! yeah... and we went to the bolling alley, wilsons, ruckers, and evan hardy on the bleachers..and we even got to watch fire works..lol. it was really nice.. bible study was funny because colton kept like getting off the topic totally and he started maing a mouth out of his cup and made it talk to me.. i laughed... then he started like doing kaitlynn's hair..hehehe. hmm then we went back to the church at like 10:15 and got to go on the toilet racers!! yay. then colton was like do u guys (me, steph, katie and kent) want a ride? and were like yeah... and he drove us to tim's and we saw Rachel, keith, carly, and tyler. Leon was working there and we made him laugh.. keith tried to give him a 5 cent canadian tire bill instead of a 2o..hahah. So we talked and stuff and the other peoples left so it was steph, colton, kent and katie..oh and me! then we had to go home (a.k.a. Katie's house) and we stayed up and had chocolate covered carmels and pop and popcron until 4:00. Then we all slept until 10:11.and then we had pancakes.. and steph mentioned that Kaitelynn doesn't have a tablecloth on her table.. lol!!!! yeah.. we are weird.. oh and steph was sooo hyper at like 3:30 am.. lol. she reallly wanted chocolate... but yeah now im typing and its weird cause it s all quiet and me and katie haven't talked to eachother for awhile.. but yeah.. i love you all. and Katelyyn loves tablecloths and blender, God's cool and all that stuff.. oh yeah im going to centennial for sure.. im not going back on my decision this time... thanks for praying for me katie...oh yeah erin.. if ur reading this which ur probably not.. u get the bracelet tomorrow.oh yeah.. yesterday i was soooo mad at my mom but ill tell u bout that later when i have what i wrote about it.. its at my other home..lol...luv yas!!!