YC: part uno

First all i have to say is HOLY COW! i had soo much fun at yc. I won't put everything into detail but I might have to make two blog enteries..lol! We arrived at Yc around i dunno 7:00. There were sooo many people. We got fairly good seats, they were kinda high up on the side, but they had a jumbotron to see everything on. So anyways, theres a guy called mike love who talked to us for awhile, then a guy called bob stromberg. They kinda talked but mostly said what would be happening this weekend. Then a guy (yes there were lots of guys..lol!) named Miles Mc Phearson, he was a formal nfl player and he kinda did the "sermon" thing. Iwas like oh great, but he was amazing! at one point he was describing this person who is a believer, but kinda stuck in the mud..thats kinda what i feel like right now. I want to get closer to God and i feel like i'm in a standstill with my faith. Aftermiles did this amazing talk, there was worship with tree 63, which was VERY emotional.. right katelynn!? lol then there was a sweeeeet audio adrenaline concert. we stayed at a chinese baptist church, which wasn't that bad. I slept in a library... haha! then we got to bed like i dunno 1:30. Then in the morning we (steph, katie and me) got muffins and chocolate milk! we drank 3 litres of chocolate milk! Then we went back to the stadium thingy and miles talked again and tree 63 did worship. Then we started sessions. The first one everyone wanted togotowas called, love, lust and acne: teenage love, isn't it great? lol hahahahha. But unfortunalty it was full so we had to go to this other one about pressure, which was kinda boring. Then i went to steller kart with leanne, rachel, keith, steph, and katie. I loooooveeeee stellar kart!! anyways, then somehow, me and steph got seperated from the group and we decided to go to hawk nelson. luckily somehow we found leon, keebo, and kent. then we stayed for pillar with them for awhilebut i wasn't feeling good so we went and feed cheesies to seagulls on top of the 15 seater. aww... i miss jim bob! lol.. anyways.... yeah, then we had dinner.. i think we had like chicken and cole slaw and stuff like that. Then we went back to the stadium thing. Miles talked again and tree 63 did worship and there was a tfk concert which was soo cool. I had never heard of them before but i love them now, although not as much as stellar kart. Well im gunna tell u more later so bye bye for now and stay tuned for yc:part 2!!!
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i can't believe it...

i was downloading music from the yc website and God just told me odeleate all the songs that wern't christian in my windows media player...i did deleate tham all.. i can't explain how i feel..

yay!

i'm so excited for yc (by the way my dad's not comin.. tony's driving) !! so yeah.. we are leaving 8:30am this friday, and we will be back at 1:30 am (yes a.m.!!) on monday. I'm gunna be so tired.. i bet i'll stay home the morning of monday from school to catch up on sleep. So far sum of the people comin are umm me, katie, steph, rachel, colton, leon, kevin, kent, sammy, tony, lynnette, erica, and trent!! lol yeah.. got to love his sunlgasses.. lol. Today i babysat for 5 hrs and now i'm sooo tired and tonight we are working on the yard after pizza (yumm) and the tomorrow we are going to church and then going to ellen's for lunch with the newton'sonday ithink wemight be going up to our cabin.. well my dad's boss' cabin that he's letting us use for the summer. On friday i went to my friend bailey's house with these 3 other people from my social class and we had to do a skit. It wasn't actually that bad..we were doing this scene with a ken doll and we were throwing into a lake pond thingy with a string on it sowe could pull it out and bailey accidently let go of the string and so we spent like 30 minutes finding random objects to pull it out.. we eventually got it out.. well erin did yay erin!! lol so yeah thats about it. Last night at youth we talked about rights. Like what rights jesus gave up for saving us. Its amazing ho0w many rights we take for granted..really. we went into small groups.. in mine there was Kristin, Steph, Lynn, Sara and this girl from vti or something along the lines of that. Ther was acutally a lot of people at youth.. wel defienbaker drive came too. I haven't really met any of them yet. But yeah.. they're comin to yc with us. well i better go.. pizza's here...

I'm back!

lol.. i guess i have been so stressed the last couple of weeks and now im back tomy normal relaxed, fun, loving self. My theory exam went really well actually and ummm what else? well this weekend of friday i did a variety night performance and it went realllllly good! i was so happy. Then i went to youth at around 9:30 and we did bible quizzing. Then on Saturday i had my big exam from 9:30 till 12:30, after my exam my mom and me went out and had lunch together which was nice because rarely do i get to spend time with my mom alone! Then we went shopping and got a really cute top for my piano recital, some capris, and bikini. After some lovely shopping we went home and i practiced piano. We went to the weibs house for caregroup and we had lotssss of food! Then i had to leave and babysit from 7:30 till 9:30... yay! moneyyyy...i need some more for yc.. which i am soo pumped about! its goin to be so fun, a weekend with all my favorite buddies! Anyways, sunday iwent to sunday school/church, then me, my brother, Katelynn, and my parents went out for ice cream. Oh yeah, Katie had her first banana split! lol. Yeah umm then we hung out, and now im waiting to go to the drop-in..

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p.s. the pic is kent in mexico..lol

heres the song i'm listning to:
spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

so stressed!!!!

heyy.. its 10:01 right now...oh wait.. 10:02 pm.. im so tired. I just got back from a long day at school, a track meet (which we proudly got fourth in) and variety night.. which didn't go as well as i planned but i did good. Right now i am stressed out of my mind! i have this big write up thingy due tomorrow which im a quarter done.. thats watim supposed to be doing now.. and then tomorrow i have andother variety night performance and then my moms now making skip youth tomorrow to study for a HUGE theory test on saturday..plus i have to do a big project with a group that can't even get together and i'm the one stuck making the script because for some reason or another everyone in my group can't talk and their like not creative..*sigh* im soo tired......................................God give me the strength to focus!!!! i dunno what i should do.. i mean i love being invlolved in everything.. and i mean everything but right now my head is going to explode! Im so mentally tired too!! uggggggg..... i am not in a good mood right now... 10:06 hmm.. well i better get going on my homework for tomorrow..

miss busy

yo.. well today was veryy long and i just wanted to get home..i can't wait for the summer..and well for yc too! cept for the fact that my daddy might be coming..blahh...well i talked to him adnd he said he would talk to mike and see if somebody else could drive instead of him.. and srry katie but u don't need a special liscence to drive a 15 passenger, nice try tho..lol. Unfortunatly if nobody else can drive then I guess i will have to put up with my father being on like the highlight trip of my whole year! yeah.. school was okay.. on of my friends keeps saying she's depressed and Im worried about her.. shes always worried about something, shes kinda umm immature? and shes not a social butterfly if u know what i mean..im one of the very few friends she has and she one of my best buddys. a few days ago she said that she was comin to centenial and now shes bumed out cause they decided not to do japanese and thats like her favorite thing in the whole world.. i love her to pieces and she like the sweetest girlsyou'd ever meet.. but i just worry about her sometimes becasue people get a different impression than i did when i met her because we were in grade 7 and i was all weird cause i just moved here.. but yeah. She feels like nobody loves her.. and thats not true! I tried telling her about God but she won't cum to youth because she thinks everyone doesn'tlike her and her anime shows are on at like 10:30 or something.. so next time i bring her to youth can u guys do a BIGGGGGGG favor? just reach out to her and let her know you enjoy being around her (only if you do) since katelynn is probably the only one reading this im sure u know who im talking about...
is flirting wrong if your not allowed to date?
should i just go out with someone even if i'm not allowed?
doilike him because im desperate?
does he like me?
does he like me for who i am or justwhat i look like?
who does God have picked out for me!?!?!?!
these are a few of the many random questions that are going thru my head right now..im just so confused sometimes and im one of those people that just wants to know whats happeneing...<3>

Wow...

Heyy peoples! i have beenhaving an amazing week so far. Well first of all Im getting bumped up (yay!!) to the faster team in track cause my coach says im really good. I have an 86 average in English.. which i thought would be more like a 75..lol and also im actually reading my bible everyday (remeber its all of ephesians katie!).. but today i was kinda depressed.. i dunno why but in fourth i didn't even talk.. i sat in my desk, did my work and walked out.. it was kinda weird because one of my friends next to me was being sorta umm loudish and it was really immature.. so i kinda got to be on the listning side for once. It made me realize how much I have calmeddown over this year.. i used to be always hyper and loud and obnoxious and totally out of control, but now i actually slow down a bit and breathe..Im sooo busy this week with Variety night (cum see me 7:00 on thursday or friday at my school), i have a 3 hr theory exam on saturday and of course my social life..lol..yeah.. thats not going to well..at school i feel some of my friends.. meaning one or 2.. care.. like really care about me.. the rest could be like oh grace is gone.. when did that happen? so yup.. thats that. Im scared realllllly bad too! im scared about going to centennial. Im not sure if i should change one of my electives so Im not too stressed cause im in all enriched classes. i guess i just have to keep praying that God will show me what classes I should take. man oh man.. i miss u guys at youth...its so hard at school because nobody understands..everyonethinks my lifes okay.. and i mean it is.. but theres so much stuff that bothering me and growing up is hard..esepcially beingthe oldest in your family..oh speaking of which.. uggg my dad is proabbly gunna drive one o fhte buses to alberta on yc..i REALLLLLY don't want that to happen.. its not like i don't want my dad to like see me doing bad stuff...its just .. hes my DAD!!! its like taking yur parents to camp with u..this was my three day weekend to be alone with my friends..i feel so selfish..but it bothers me a lot. Yeah... Wat else is going on?? well theres this guy at school who supposedly likes me.. he says he doesn't but does nothing when his friends say mean stuff about me and him.. i don't even like the kid and my friends always make me sit beside him in forth and it REALLLY makes me uncomfortable.. ii really don't like this kid.. i dunno wat to do.. we don't have a seating plan and yeah.. it sucks..well i will stop writing all my worries/joys/troubles and stuff so yeah. i love you guys and im gunna be late for youth on friday

*yawn*

i am sooo tired! last night was sooo funny though. Colton and Kent and my Katelynn came over (wow actually spelled ur name right..lol)! it was soo fun.. we watched a movie again.. we were SUPPOSED to watch robinhood men in tights but they brought goldmember..ugg i hate that movie..so we watched school of rock. Katie left halfway through the movie cause she went to visit her grandpa. (yay hes home! God please keep Katie's grandpa stay healthy and safe. Thanks for bringing him home to his family) So it was just me Colton and Kent. Then we watched the rest of the movie, ate chips and they drank the pop.. lol. Then we went upstairs and talked to my dad about Kents job, when hes moving, church and yeah.... then i kicked them out. Then umm i watched mars attacks but got sooo tired, then went to bed... and here I am. Well i have to go eat something before I go to church. I have soo much stuff to do after church. anyways.. i g2g.. luv u as always

at katie's

heyy everyone.. im at kaitlynn's right now.. so tired.. lol Well last night was a blast. I went to youth at 7 for slt (student leadership team) and nobody showed up and then colton and kent and kristin showed up.. oh and graham..lol anyways... we prayed then a bunch of people showed up..my erin came home!!!! and umm we did the amazing race.. i was in a car with kristin, steph, sarah, monique and poor matt. me and steph were waving at hott guys in trucks..lol! yeah... and we went to the bolling alley, wilsons, ruckers, and evan hardy on the bleachers..and we even got to watch fire works..lol. it was really nice.. bible study was funny because colton kept like getting off the topic totally and he started maing a mouth out of his cup and made it talk to me.. i laughed... then he started like doing kaitlynn's hair..hehehe. hmm then we went back to the church at like 10:15 and got to go on the toilet racers!! yay. then colton was like do u guys (me, steph, katie and kent) want a ride? and were like yeah... and he drove us to tim's and we saw Rachel, keith, carly, and tyler. Leon was working there and we made him laugh.. keith tried to give him a 5 cent canadian tire bill instead of a 2o..hahah. So we talked and stuff and the other peoples left so it was steph, colton, kent and katie..oh and me! then we had to go home (a.k.a. Katie's house) and we stayed up and had chocolate covered carmels and pop and popcron until 4:00. Then we all slept until 10:11.and then we had pancakes.. and steph mentioned that Kaitelynn doesn't have a tablecloth on her table.. lol!!!! yeah.. we are weird.. oh and steph was sooo hyper at like 3:30 am.. lol. she reallly wanted chocolate... but yeah now im typing and its weird cause it s all quiet and me and katie haven't talked to eachother for awhile.. but yeah.. i love you all. and Katelyyn loves tablecloths and blender, God's cool and all that stuff.. oh yeah im going to centennial for sure.. im not going back on my decision this time... thanks for praying for me katie...oh yeah erin.. if ur reading this which ur probably not.. u get the bracelet tomorrow.oh yeah.. yesterday i was soooo mad at my mom but ill tell u bout that later when i have what i wrote about it.. its at my other home..lol...luv yas!!!

Heyy everyone.. im back! well so far this week is going awesome.. although its only Monday..lol. Today I actually read my bible.. thats like the first time in what 2 or 3 months? (not counting sunday school). I guess i looove to fill my schedule up. and i recently added another thing to it too.. i am now on a sports team..lol umm i just joined the track team and im not half bad either. Im going to my first meet on uh Wednesday so please pray that I don't embarass myself too much! Yeah... umm what else? I got lots of piano stuff going on.. a BIG recital on May 17 and I have a grade 3 harmony exam (for 3 hours!!!! *groan*) 2 saturdays from now.. so im pretty busy.. but not busy enough. Me and Katlynn and Ellen are doing an offeratory song which will be soooo fun/good/awesome/sweeeeet... lol. I can't wait for friday!! amazing race is gunna be so fun. But yeah.. theres not a whole lot to look forward to these days.. just summer.. oh yeah. Im gunna be spending the whole (weel not the whole) summer this year at a lake in a very umm rustic cabin..lol. Im also having a family reunion for all the family on my mothers side (from the usa) and yeah. also im finsing time to fit in the only sport Im really good at.. wakeboarding. but yeah.. i can't wait! Well i better go for now.. i hope more than just katelynn reads this stuff..lol i doubt it. byeee... i love/miss you all