devos....

Be still and know that I am God Psalm 46:10
I read this in my devos this morning. Last night I was like man i should read my bible. Then just as I was about to pick it up, God was like Gracie, you just need to be still for a minute, no writing prayers, no reading just listening. So I was like okay. Fine, have it your way...lol. So i grabbed my iPod and sat on my bed and started to listen to my wroship music. I found a good song and just looked out my window. Right in my window was the moon. It was so big and beautiful. And i realized hey, my daddy made that. Thats pretty cool. So then I just sat on my bed and looked at the moon and just thought about how awesome God is. He has been totally blessing my life lately and I have been coming so much closer to him. He has shown me how he can bring certain people in your life for a reason, there not just there for your entertainment. He's shown my how he can work through me when im willing to take risks for him, but he will reward me in the end. God is totally awesome guys.

oh im just a thinkin...:P

well ive been thinking lately. since i've had a lot of time to think. a few days ago i was thinking. i felt so alone, weak and just drained. I cleared my mind and tried to relax. i saw my bible laying on my table. without even thinking, i picked it up. i heard the words psalm and 62 in my head. i immediatly could tell that it was my father's voice. so without hesitation i flipped to pslam 62 and it was such a miracle and a blessing. it says:
1 For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation. 2 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall never be shaken.
3 How long will you assail a person,
will you batter your victim, all of you,
as you would a leaning wall, a tottering fence?
4 Their only plan is to bring down a person of prominence.
They take pleasure in falsehood;
they bless with their mouths,
but inwardly they curse.
5 For God alone my soul waits in silence,
for my hope is from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
7 On God rests my deliverance and my honor;
my mighty rock, my refuge is in God.
8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us.
9 Those of low estate are but a breath,
those of high estate are a delusion;
in the balances they go up;
they are together lighter than a breath.
10 Put no confidence in extortion,
and set no vain hopes on robbery;
if riches increase, do not set your heart on them.
11 Once God has spoken;
twice have I heard this:
that power belongs to God,
12 and steadfast love belongs to you, O Lord.
For you repay to all
according to their work.
For me this was such a blessing not only because i felt like i was alone, but also because i felt like i had done all these things for God but nothing had come from it. He promises us that we will be repayed for the things we have done for him. i know that God is my rock and I can lean on him...
just thinkin....

prayer for me.... praise for God...

Father, i know that i can get excited reallly easy. Tonight when im out with my friends can you please guide the way i talk and act. help me to slow down and help me to see other around me. Help me to listen sometimes...

God i praise you for putting so many blessings in my life. you are truely amazing. i have seen you work in so many lives. please help me to recognize these blessings and give them back to you. you are the one that deserves all the credit. You have surrounded me with so many God given opportunities and so many people willing to help me accomplish them.

wow two posts in one day....

well im not sure as to why im posting right now but i just need to get out my thoughts i guess. im feeling really traped, literally, i just feel like i want to get out of the house. its probably because all i did yesterday was sit at home by myself till midnight. but sometimes thats all i feel like doing lately. i dunno things are crazy and i just want to have fun and get on with my life. i dunno wats holding me back though. maybe im just pmsing?? i have no clue.... oh well i just everything to go back to normal in my life so that i can function...

Friends

well most of you know by now that leon and i aren't together anymore. obviously for his sake and mine im not going to talk about it but what i am going to say is that it was avery good experience. we went out for almost 15 months. you would think after going out for so long, you couldn't be friends afterwards, but of course there is God in all of this. The night that i broke up with Leon we felt so much love for eachother, in a friend way, and we were so happy that we didn't have to part in bitterness. i know that he will always be my friend.
but on the other hand, what do i fill this huge whole in my heart with?? Well the obvious answer is God and that is what i have been doing. its been amazing just being so lonely and then being like Gods my best buddy, i can always chill with him tonight. but also, i realized that there are so many friends that i have forgotton about that are all around me . they aren't the obvious ones either. today i wrote one of my friends an email apologizing for how i treated her becuase i felt as though i had ignored her. then i read my devotions on my email and it was all about friends. it wasn't anything long but here it is:

A man [that hath] friends must show himself friendly. Proverbs 18:24 During your teenage years they can make you or break you. They can stress you out more than anything else. No, they aren’t zits or clothing or even grades…they are your friends. All through high school and college you have to be in the right social circles. In high school you have the jocks, cheerleaders, preps, party goers, nerds, etc. In most colleges there are fraternities and sororities that everyone wants to be a part of. While social status may be the important factor in the world today, that doesn’t mean you should snub those considered “lower” than you. When you ignore others, you are showing that you don’t care about them. Less and less people will like you because of your harsh actions. Proverbs says that, “A man who has friends must show himself friendly.” When you are nice to everyone, God’s grace shines through you and you become a friend of all of the groups at your school or work. Go out of your way today to be kind. See the rewards that God will grant you when you treat everyone the way you would like to be treated.

That just spoke to me and told me that i shouldn't care about all these cliques and stuff, i need to put myself out there...