Friends

well most of you know by now that leon and i aren't together anymore. obviously for his sake and mine im not going to talk about it but what i am going to say is that it was avery good experience. we went out for almost 15 months. you would think after going out for so long, you couldn't be friends afterwards, but of course there is God in all of this. The night that i broke up with Leon we felt so much love for eachother, in a friend way, and we were so happy that we didn't have to part in bitterness. i know that he will always be my friend.
but on the other hand, what do i fill this huge whole in my heart with?? Well the obvious answer is God and that is what i have been doing. its been amazing just being so lonely and then being like Gods my best buddy, i can always chill with him tonight. but also, i realized that there are so many friends that i have forgotton about that are all around me . they aren't the obvious ones either. today i wrote one of my friends an email apologizing for how i treated her becuase i felt as though i had ignored her. then i read my devotions on my email and it was all about friends. it wasn't anything long but here it is:

A man [that hath] friends must show himself friendly. Proverbs 18:24 During your teenage years they can make you or break you. They can stress you out more than anything else. No, they aren’t zits or clothing or even grades…they are your friends. All through high school and college you have to be in the right social circles. In high school you have the jocks, cheerleaders, preps, party goers, nerds, etc. In most colleges there are fraternities and sororities that everyone wants to be a part of. While social status may be the important factor in the world today, that doesn’t mean you should snub those considered “lower” than you. When you ignore others, you are showing that you don’t care about them. Less and less people will like you because of your harsh actions. Proverbs says that, “A man who has friends must show himself friendly.” When you are nice to everyone, God’s grace shines through you and you become a friend of all of the groups at your school or work. Go out of your way today to be kind. See the rewards that God will grant you when you treat everyone the way you would like to be treated.

That just spoke to me and told me that i shouldn't care about all these cliques and stuff, i need to put myself out there...