all bout my life

tiredness...

2008-08-15T15:51:00.000-07:00

im extremely tired right now because of a few reasons:
1. my brother has pneumonia so im looking after him
2. my mom has a high fever so im making sure she gets sleep
3. i had to watch the baby all afternoon till dinner
4. i had to take care of things around the house because my
dad had to drive my brother around to the doctor and work

i thought they were pretty good reasons...

on a different note, im very excited because Kent is coming tomorrow! just for the day. then he comes again on Wednesday for a few days then leaves for Israel on the 24th. well my summer has been going pretty well. i was talking to someone the other day, possibly my mom, and saying how during August im usually very happy about going back to school and excited. this summer i wish would not end. as thrilled as i am about grade 12, there are a lot of unknowns for me at this point and its a little scary. i would rather just sleep all i want, see my sister during the day, work full time and just chill with my friends whenever. but thats not going to happen so im beginning to prepare myself for the journey i have ahead. luckily, there are quite a few of us who are starting grade 12 so a feeling of loneliness is out of the question. although i do feel like im the only one who has huge decisions to make before school starts in regards to my future and what im doing with my life. but there is a solution. well, i guess its more of a way to a solution, and thats giving it to God. thats all i can do at this point is let God handle my future. and for once, i really dont mind Him handling this one. growing up is scary.

the "hamburgler"

2008-07-24T13:59:00.001-07:00

Well yesterday i was at katelynn's house and we decided to go to Mc Donalds to get a happy meal. we walked in the door and there was four, 15 year old boys sitting at a table. one of them asked us to buy him a double cheeseburger. i said no and for him to stop talking to us. they all left and me and katelynn were left to eat in peace, but not for long. the one kid came up to our table and said hi ladies, then he grabbed katelynn's hamburger and ran. i thought he was going to come back but he didnt, he just kept running. well i was sorta mad so i ran out after him cause i had paid for katelynn. and katelynn was shocked and just sitting at the table. so then we got into my car and we chased him down. and he had eaten the cheeseburger. so i told him that he better pay us some money. he ran. we ran. into the park. i parked my car at katelynn's house. we lost them, then snuck up on them. as we were crouched behind some bushes some older guys we behind us, and looking very confused about why we were hiding in bushes. so i explained. and made us sound like complete stupid heads. i was like uh.. they uh stole her cheeseburger. and i pointed at katelynn. so then they decided to help us. so they went up to the group of guys and said that they were gunna call their friend named jack who had one eye and a hand gun. the younger guys looked a little frightened. but they proceeded to tell the older boys that they didnt steal katelynn's cheeseburger. then the 15 year olds went off and found some girls to tell their adventures too. luckily the girls werent too impressed and ended up telling us where the one kid lived and his name. after calling and searching for an address, me and katelynn went to this kids house. wow were we ever embarassed. the house was a mansion, and we were asking for like 2 bucks to buy a cheeseburger. reluctantly we went to the door, already feeling bad because it was like 10:oopm. we explained to his parents the whole story and they got katelynn's number. just as i was leaving katelynn's house the mom called. she said the boy was home and that he would give her five bucks. so katelynn went over and got the five bucks. so yeah. thats the end of that. thats my story of my wonderful wednesday night. it made my summer. did it at least make your day?

summer days...

2008-07-09T10:14:00.000-07:00

wow im feeling that summer boredom kicking in already, usually that starts in August for me. im starting to regret staying home all summer, no camp no anything. but there are a few things to look forward to i guess. Jerrid's 16th birthday party this Saturday, which is also when my stephie poo is coming home! also this weekend katelynn is spending at my house while her parents are out of town. and the last thing, which in my opinion is pretty exciting, is going to the Bes with Katelynn and Caitlin. thats next wednesday. and... so far.. thats my summer. pretty boring eh? one thought that i had was going out to Victoria to visit my grandparents, just for a few days, but i think that i might get a little bored. like its nice when someone comes with u, like my little brother for instance. but it would be me and the grandparents. i dunno, when i was little they could take my down to the beach and it was great. who knows, maybe ill go, maybe i wont. i just wish more people were around, dont get me wrong katelynn i have enjoyed hanging out with u for the past three days!!! haha. but i miss sooo many people *cough* steph! ahaha okay and maybe my little brother.. just a bit. and kent of course but im sorta used to him away for long periods of time but i might not be seeing him until like September which is pretty far away. oh well for now im not minding going on DQ runs and Walmart adventures with katelynn and kayla haha... what would i do without u guys? xoxo

SUMMER!!!!

2008-06-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

i cant believe summer is finally here! this year has honestly been one of the worst years ever school wise, although my finals were incredibly easy so i shouldnt really complain. yay for report cards on friday. Ha i survived math B30 online! barely.. i think i got like a 66% in that class. oh well.. haha. im not planning to be an engineer or anything so its all good. well like i said on the one way girls blog im not doing anything for the summer. just working and such. cant believe that im going to England! its not going to hit me until im on the plane. unfortunately its costing me like $3,000 to go but it will definately be worth it. my dads verrry jealous haha. call me up or text me if ur bored!

mental break down #.. too many to count..

2008-06-01T21:42:00.000-07:00

it seems like everytime i have a math test, i have a mental break down. like i am right now..

im rushing to hand in my assignments, i dont understand the material and i end up failing or doing really poorly on it. part of the reason is i dont understand the stuff but also im so busy with work. but i love work and i only work like 2 days a week. i cant quit my job..... i dont know what to do anymore about this stupid online math. its so stressful and i cant teach myself. theres been wayy too many late nights, too much crying and missing school. thats dumb.. its math.. it shouldnt have to be like that. ughh..

...my friday night...

2008-05-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

well last night i went to youth as usual. i was very excited because a professor from Briarcrest came in to talk to us about the bible and how to use it. also, the worship band was supposed to be playing a lottt of songs and we actually did a super good job! i couldnt believe how good we sounded. haha. anyways, at one point during the night, we went off in the church and we were given a few chapters out of the psalms to read. we havent really done much on our own lately at youth because we have been doing bible studies lead by a sponsor. but yeah so i went in the prayer room and read my bible, and put some worship music on my iPod. i realized how important it is for me to have quiet time. i dont do that very often. but yeah also, having someone from briarcrest talking about there experience there kinda made me think that i might want to go to bible college one day. im not saying for sure but its a possibility. i think it would be a really good experience and it sounds like a lot of fun. well. there are my random thoughts. haha hope u all had a good week and i shall see u all on Sunday!

one of those days

2008-05-05T16:03:00.000-07:00

do u ever have one of those days where u feel like everything is wrong, but u cant think of what is wrong? like everything is stressing u out but ur not even that busy. like all u want to do is just sit in ur pjs and eat a bucket of ice cream? like u just want to listen to jack johnson? like u feel sorry for urself.. and then get mad for being selfish? like theres something in ur head that u cant get out and u just cant concentrate on anything? like nothing makes sense to u anymore?

well maybe u have never felt like this...

but for some reason i am today...

just one of those days i guess...

at home today

2008-04-25T11:03:00.001-07:00

i decided that id rather be at home today stressing out about my piano performance rather than at school doing a math, chem and bio test. hmm.. all im doing is a whole bunch of math and popping sweet tarts in my mouth. they taste pretty good, but they sure are sugary. today at three im playing my toccata. and tomorrow afternoon im performing with ellen and then a waltz by chopin. ill just be glad when this is all over so i dont have to keep practicing piano 24/7, which has also gotten my fairly behind in my school work. which is another reason why im not going to school today. i havent even started studying yet, so i need the weekend to figure out whats going on in school. wow life has never been busier, im going back to work next week, then leaving for Ottawa!!! yay, then YC which i am sooo pumped about. Ottawa may be a bit boring but i hear its really pretty there so im definatly goin to take LOTS of pictures!. yay for moving making at youth on friday. i guess ill see you all there. hopefully u all will be there.. u better...lol xoxoxoxo

no titleee

2008-04-14T20:12:00.000-07:00

hello everyone. well ive been busy lately but extremly happy! this is good. i have not been happy for a long time like this. things are going so good in my world. God has blessed me with amazing friends and family and i just cant thank him enough lately. i would really appreciate some prayer this week and next week because next Friday and Saturday i will be performing at the music festival for my piano. im doing 2 very difficult pieces and i really need the prayer because if i do well enough i could make it to provincials. just pray that God will calm these stupid nerves. i know im ready i just feel nervous for some reason. anyways i will be at youth Friday. but i guess i should get back to math. oh yay. fun.

finally an update...

2008-04-05T09:25:00.000-07:00

hello world. i figured i might as well post instead of just sitting at my computer staring at the screen. haha. well my egypt girls are back and im happy about that. although i never got my camel..lol. oh well they're much better than a camel... anyways. so last night i actually had so much fun! me, steph, landon (her bf), kayla, and her friend, kent, and caitlin all went to see P.S. i love you. oh it was such a cute movie! i liked it. not as much as i love the notebook. haha. yes the notebook is my favourite movie of all time. but yeah it was still pretty cute. i felt bad for the guys cause they had both seen it already and its a major chick flick but watever. haha. well today i think im going to do some major homework/studying for a math test and a bio quiz and a chem test which should be just enjoyable. and then tonight i get to work again. so its already a pretty full day! but i guess that means i should probably get going... haha i just wanted to let u know that im alive!! haha
<3

cant seem to focus...

2008-03-18T19:56:00.000-07:00

im supposed to be doing math right now, and studying for a chem test... but i cant focus on anything.. im partly just really bored but also my mind is running a mile a minute...
im thinking about how much im gunna miss caitlin, katelynn and steph when they go to egypt... like i never really realized how much i love those three girls until they get taken away for 13 days... ahh.. well im sure ill find something to pass the time.. hopefully. ive been up till about 12:30 every night for a week. i dont know why... i just dont feel tired and its kinda of caught up with me. but when its like 10:30 ill be awake again. oh wellll... i guess i should start studying... <3

music

2008-03-16T22:27:00.000-07:00

i never really realized how important music is to me. ive been at one of those not so close points with God and i haven't been to church for quite awhile. its not that i havent been feeling like going, its just that i have been extremely busy. anyways, so today i was on my way to worship and i was actually really pumped for the practice for some reason. usually its just part of my weekly routine. so i get to the church and help mike pick out some songs for our package for the pancake breakfast on Friday (which you should all come to!) and yeah then practice started and we had to start with the hardest song first. and we played through it a couple of times and by the end we rocked at it. it was so much fun. i was so happy by the end of the practice. it made me happy that my music was worshiping God. He gave me the talent of being able to play the piano and i can use that to bring glory to him. i think thats so awesome. Worship music is so powerful and for me, it helps me feel so much closer to God. and thats just what i needed.

regina

2008-03-11T00:21:00.000-07:00

well ok.. i was on a blogging spree but i decided it had to stop somewhere.. haha i still blogged wayyyy more than any of u, but i guess that tells you how much of a life i have haha, soo im sitting in my hotel room in Regina (on a band trip), with my friend Dayle ahha and we are going to be so tired in the morning because it is now 1:30 in the morning and we have to get up by like 6 something.... well i had nothing better to do so i drank an energy drink not that long ago, which probably wasnt that smart...butt im not a very smart person...lol ahh well im having funn and im relaxed which never happens much anymore. listning to teardrops on my guitar, listning to dayle sing it lol while shes working on some sewing thinger ahaha... well so far regina has sucked to be honest, i hate only being able to eat fast food so i bought a HUGE bottle of water.. but so far all thats done for me is make me go pee like every 2 hours! why cant people be on msn at 1:30....lol well i guess theres school in the morning ahha. well i miss Destiny and im also very sorry that i haven't been going to church.... ive been soo busy its rediculous.. but i will be there next week. lol anyways i love you all! xoxoxoxoxox

work

2008-02-24T20:01:00.000-08:00

So today was my first shift at DQ. it was so much fun but an unbelievable amount of work. i worked an eight hour so im pretty tired. today wasnt too bad but my head feels like its going to explode with all the different information.. i learned about working the till to how to make blizzards and banana splits. but everyone was super nice to me and i think im really going to enjoy working there. plus its nice to know a lot of the people already, half of the people who work there go to my school. but i was basically on my feet the whole time. i really enjoy making all the different kinds of ice cream but you know the DQ swirl? (the little swirly thinger on top of your cone....) is so hard to do. i must have made over 100 things and it took me like such a long time to get the swirl right. lol no kidding. but anyways im tired so im going to bed. talk to you all later. school tomorrow.... yay.....

random thoughts...

2008-02-23T20:14:00.000-08:00

So don't be afraid; you are more valuable to him than a whole flock of sparrows. Matthew 10:31

so im feeling a bit alone right now. the whole day i have been feeling His presence off and on. One minute i feel like God is sitting right next to me, and then the next its like hes on the other side of the world. I know there is a battle for my heart. God wants me to follow him and be his child. His pathway might look difficult with twists and turns but at the end there are golden gates to his kingdom. The other path is well worn and appealing but at the end there is nothing, just emptiness. I have to decide which of these paths I will take. It seems that i have to make this decision daily.
I know that Gods path is the only one i want to travel. He is the one that actually cares about me. I am valuable to him. He is the one that will love me forever. He is enough for me. This is something ive been having to learn lately. Ever since i broke up with leon, ive had some flings with guys and the last one just ended. When i was little i always told myself that guys were stupid and I didnt need them. but now that im finally done with stupid and pointless relationships, I feel lonely at times because im used to looking forward to that phone call at night before i go to bed, or the hug randomly at school. But i realized that there is still something to look forward to. My father, God. I can go to bed tonight and feel his love surround me like the sheets in my bed. I look forward to talking to him until i fall asleep. (its better with God cause i dont have to use a phone that i could forget to hang up).
I know i went boy crazy for awhile. i dont like that. but God has forgiven me and im learning to forgive myself. and other people. All i want to focus on now is getting myself closer to Him. I want to let myself go and let him run all parts of my life, including my social life. I always fight to keep a tiny part of my life to myself but i realized that thats not going to work. I cant do this on my own. i cant be a control freek.
God is truely amazing. Thats all i can say.

just feeling like it....

2008-02-23T14:46:00.000-08:00

well there arent many days when i actually feel like blogging... unfortunatly... but today i just want to, no reason at all. nothing really interesting is happening in my world so im not gunna lie, this post will probably be random and boring. well lets start off with my weekend. well its 5:00 on Saturday so i guess its not over.... anyways. i know that last night most of u were at Sams and i wish i was too i just never knew about it cause i wasnt on my computer at all yesterday.. well until midnight. but yeah so i went to Caitlin Scotts house and hing out with some buddies from SRC and then we went to Boston Pizza for supper.. i split nachos with Caitlin and Ben and had a chicken thai salad.. yummmmy! but i realized what a great deal nachos at Alexanders is. There like 9 bucks, they taste wayyy better and you get this huge over flowing plate of them. anywho, after that me, Caitlin, and our friends Dustin, Ryan, Joey and Matthew came over to Caitlins and they taught us how to play halo. haha wow.. im usually very opposed to these types of games but i acutally loved it.. although the boys mainly used my guy for target practice because i kept going out in the open. after halo we watched some tv and listened to Dustin sing on rockband.. haha. it was awesome. Matthew has a one month old daughter who is just adorable and i held her for a lot of the time. shes so tiny! and yeah then i went home at midnight and that concluded the 12 hour SRC marathon.. ahah it was a blast though.

After this im going to have to start the bio project i was supposed to be working on the whole break, but im procrastinating as usual. im doing it on creationism verses evolution. its a difficult argument to research on but its really interesting to see where both sides are coming from.... anyways..... i shall stop procarstinating more......... ohh facebook!

getting better

2008-02-19T14:37:00.001-08:00

okay so its been a few days. lifes getting better. well its still hard but whatever. im going to be okay. i realize that God definatly had a role in this. Like i thought for sure it would be me breaking up with him. But I know that I don't have the heart to do that so I probably wouldve been stuck in a pointless relationship if he hadn't done it. but moving on...
so this week has been good. theres always ups and downs but i have been getting in some nice relaxation time and stuff. so yeah oh and i saw step up 2 last night with my friend Aly and oh my word! it was soooo good!!! i love it. anyways.. oh and today i baked chocolate chip banana muffins.. yummmmyyyy.. but i should go for now.. just wanted to let you all know that im okay!!!

breaking up

2008-02-17T17:28:00.000-08:00

so joey phoned me not that long ago and he broke up with me.

normally you see this coming in a relationship, i didn't.

he told me he didnt have time for me and it "wasn't" me it was him.

he told me that he like being single, but if he ever had a girlfriend

i was perfect.

i guess i wasnt perfect enough.

i know God did not want me in this relationship because he tugged at my heart. other people wer constantly worried about me in a relationship with a non christian. i know this is what God wants me to do.

even though we went out for just under a month, i really liked him. a lot. and it hurts when someone you care about suddenly drops you and your heart shatters. it sucks. i don't really know what else to say. i dont want people to feel sorry for me. i got myself into this one and i guess joey got me out of it. but yeah. ill be fine. im just going to keep telling myself that.

valentines day xoxo

2008-02-14T18:53:00.000-08:00

so today is valentines day. sometimes its a good day for people, sometimes its a bad day. to tell you the truth i do not remember valentines day last year. well today was kinda just like any other day for me. i would have done something special with joey but he left today for regina for a hockey tournament for four days. he had only and hour to spend with me after school till he had to be home. we were going to try to go have lunch where he works (avacados on 8th street) but obviously an hour isnt enough time to do just that. so we went to DQ accross the street from school and had a romantic date and he bought me a blizzard. okay so it wasnt so romantic but he did sit next to me after i stupidly ordered a blizzard in -50 weather and i started to shake (and having little "katelynn" seizures). then we had a romantic drive back to his house with my brother in the back seat talking to him about tires and cars and racing cars. i stopped following the convorsation after they said drag racing. oh well. i personally think valentines day is over rated and im not being bitter because i didn't do anything particularly special. its a "hallmark" holiday.
what i think valentines day is, is a day to celebrate true love. not boyfriend girlfriend highschool love, because you never know when that can end. but the only true love we have. the love of Jesus. Seriously, I know most of you hear this all the time but God loves us so much. There is nothing like his unconditional love. sometimes we take this love for granted. ok maybe we take it for granted a lot. i know i do. but when you think about it, its like having to give up your son, or your daughter, a loved one, a sibling or a friend and watching them die and suffer in one of the most painful ways possible. honestly i don't think there is one person who can handle that. only God has that much strength and love for us. He loves us so much that he put something so perfect and so remarkable on a cross to be torured for us sinners who really don't deserve it. that kind of love will never be matched. not by any boyfriends or girlfriends, or even our parents. nothing can match the love of God.
on a happier note. im pumped for tomorrow at youth and i can't wait to see you guys! and to eat chocolate. i shall see you guys later. love you all!
happy valentine's day.
xoxox

whats been happening...

2008-02-05T19:10:00.000-08:00

well not much.. lol the past few weeks have been a blur really. with school starting, friends, boyfriends, piano, homework.... life is busy. but i have been managing to stay close with God which is reasuring. life seems to be going really well. im really happy and i love all my friends and i love God. everything seems to be just the best its every been. but part of me is fearful...
sometimes i think that this feeling isnt going to last and im just waiting for the day that something is going to go wrong.. like this weekend. i haven't felt so hopeless in a long time. my parents were constantly talking to me about my life (and i don't blame them), i was grounded on Saturday, and everything seemed to be crumbling around me. when this happens i usually go to God and ask him to help me get through it. and i did, but sometimes its nice to have someone to physically talk to (aka a friend). When things are going bad i turn to one person usually.. leon. as most of u know, hes been gone since last week and will be gone for 6 weeks or something up north. i know that leon and i have had our fights and whatnot and i knew that i needed a break from seeing him and stuff. but as soon as he left, i needed him.. and thats the first time he hasn't been there. i got this pain in my cheast like when we broke up and i realized how upset i was that my best friend was gone. i felt lonely. i guess its just weird not having him around cause hes always around. hes always there ready to answer my phone calls when im sobbing on the other end telling him how life sucks..(it doesn't tho..lol) well i guess u never know what you have until its gone..

semester 2

2008-01-29T08:32:00.000-08:00

well im at school right now on my spare... pretty boring. i had chemistry first (yay) and i was supposed to be in a class with katelynn and steph and kayla and caitlin buttttt... i got shafted into a different class. oh well.. im sure ill last. next period i have biology which should be lovely.. and then history and psychology. im so pumped for psychology!!! theres not much to say but its really cold outside.... like -50.. honestly they need to cancel school... lol well i guess im done..<3

worship..

2008-01-27T13:13:00.001-08:00

well i just got back from the amazing retreat.. im not gunna tell you all about it just cause most of u were there and theres no point in having you read about what you did... haha but the one thing i do want to talk about is worship. like okay, before the retreat the team worked really hard to get our songs ready. even though we had practiced so much i was still pretty scared. but when we played it was so amaxing like it was so cool. im not trying to brag, its not even that we sounded good it was the mood and feeling. everything was so happy. like i bet in all the pics of me playing keyboard i have this huge goofy grin on my face. and honestly i don't think i have ever felt more at peace and happy ever before. i am so glad that God told me to go on this retreat, so much stuff was said and it was truley a blessing to come and be with all of you.

an answered prayer

2008-01-19T09:43:00.000-08:00

so most of you know that ive been kinda struggling with not going to the retreat. im supposed to be going to this high school select wind orchestra which always conflicts with the winter retreat. i believe that i missed it last year because of this. anyways im the type of person who wants to be involved in evertyhing and i don't want to miss out. so i prayed to God that he would show me what i need to do. Part of me wanted to stay home because to be honest, i don't mind these band things. But the other part of me was like, you know ive been working my butt of and i want to have a nice weekend with my friends and God is going to be working in that place. So last night in small groups, this subject was prayed upon. I thought nothing of it afterwards. This morning i woke up and my mom was in the kitchen and i was like mom guess what, and shes like no you guess what. and so i waited her to tell me what she needed to say, and she said Grace, you are going on the retreat. weirdly enough that was just the thing i was about to tell her. my dad heard all this and he was just confused... but yeah so im going to be going on the retreat becasue God wants me to be there. oh and by the way, any rumour you heard about my mom coming is totally not true...lol

things are finally good...

2008-01-16T08:21:00.000-08:00

okay so the past few weeks, particularly the past week, has been a rough one. this week ive been trying something new. im the type of person that gets really stressed out becasue of finals. what better way to not be stressed out by doing some good ol devos. God definatly had this one planned out. The past few nights he has shown me so many amazing verses its crazy. and ive been writing in my prayer journal everyday. God has been so close to me lately but i hope that doesn't go away. I was losing hope there for a little bit but He showed me all of the amazing things He has done for me in the past and i knew that i just had to believe and trust in Him again. by doing this, God can work through me to help my friends and people in my life in ways that i could never imagine.
anyways, im at school right now. its second so i have my spare right now.. school is absolutely insane right now but hopefully everything will calm down after finals. but i guess ill go for now. thanks for praying for me guys, it definatly helped! love you all...
xoxoxox

prayer?

2008-01-13T16:32:00.000-08:00

hey guys. im having a bit of a rough day. okay make that a lot of a rough day. can u guys please pray for me? im sorry but i can't tell you whats going on but ill be okay. just pray for me that God would give me strength. thanks

mmmm...its good to be back

2008-01-12T08:04:00.000-08:00

so last night i went to youth. it was sorta a "new start" cause we are starting a new bible study. I am in Candace's group and i absolutely love it! i got put with some lovely girls (and my enji!!!) and i know that God put us in a group for a reason.

lately, i have been having that feeling where i want to be close to God but i just can't get there. no matter how hard i try, i just wasn't feeling him. so finally last week, God spoke to me. There is a friend of mine who is having some trouble and ive been really worried about them. God showed me a person at our church who could help my friend. I knew that God was talking to me because after church my mom told me that she felt the same thing.

God is so amazing guys. i know that he loves all of us.

God please help us all through these tough and stressful weeks of finals. i pray that you would help us to keep focused on our studies and help us to remember all the information that we learned. Take all of our nervousness away and please help us to feel your presence.

amen...

in victoria...

2007-12-23T09:55:00.000-08:00

heyy guys. sorry i haven't talked to most of you lately. this morning it was raining but it was 5 degrees! so me, destiny, and my daddy went up mount doug (the mountain by my gramma and grandpas house). it was pretty wet and mucky but the smell of the trees and the rain is one of the best things in the world. its so quiet up there but if you listen really hard you can hear all the little birds and the wind whistling through the bushes. and the trees. wow, they kick our trees butts haha. they are so tall and old. and everything is green. oh well
on the other hand i am very homesick. i love saskatoon but even more than that i miss all you guys and my doggy..lol but ill be home soon enough, thursday to be exact. anyways i better go my dad wants to make the "plan" for today... haha
miss u all!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

r.i.p.

2007-12-14T16:53:00.000-08:00

so today i learned about the car accident that im sure a few of you know about. there were some guys going to a b-ball game who were from borden and they got hit by a big truck. two of them died (they were 16) and then one of them is in surgury. to tell you the truth i wouldn't be affected much by this. i mean of course id feel really bad and sad for these two young guys. its a horrible thing to hear.. but two of my closer friends knew these guys and they are both really taking it hard. one of my friends actually lives in borden so its really hitting her hard and stuff. so i was wondering if you guys wouldn't mind praying for my friends and also those two boys. and also the guy whose in surgury. thanks..

happyyyy

2007-12-10T19:05:00.000-08:00

well i dunno why i called this post happy but i guess im happy..lol anywayss.. there goes random grace..haha but seriously so how are things going in all of ur lives??? oh wait thats a sort of stupid thing to ask on my blog..haha but yeahh ummmmmmmmm.... k well like i have been pretty happy lately and things have been going good in life. no more backing up into cars (yes i already got into a fender bender..haha) and no more bad people in my life. everyones my friend and for the most part everyones being nice to me. for the most part

there is one person.. who teases me (meanily hahaah thats not a word) and its all jokes and stuff.. but its hurting me slowly. i tell them to stop and grow up but the problem persists. can u guys pray for me that i can deal with this situation in a Godly way instead of coming back with a nasty retort.. thanks

.....:S

2007-12-03T17:42:00.000-08:00

i give up.
sometimes i wonder why it think i can even try.
why should i try to fight it?
why do i think i can win this fight?
i'm always goin to be the loser in this one...

cause my God is going to win this one

i always seem to fight what he want's for me
but in the end i always wish i should've trusted him
casue in the end my way always ends up
just hurting me
i wish that i had a time machine that could take me back
even just a few weeks ago
and things would be so much different...

why do i trust my heart?
why do i think my way is always right?
why do i resist his love and help?...

God you are there for me always
i know you are here right now as i type this
please just take me in you heart again
in your heart is the only place
this mixed up little girl can fit into
take me back please
i want to be safe from this world
your all i want and i need you so badly
you are everthing
just plain everything...

nothing could be better than having you in my life again
you are more than enough for me
i don't need boys, money, or even a car to satisfy me
you can overflow my heart more than anyone in this world
your love is so deep and its the only true kind of love
people always tell me that they love me
your the only one i can trust
you will never hurt me
you will always love me
you are my father and i
am you daughter...
and i thank you for that

God im asking you to take me back into your arms...
i am once again taking into my heart
letting you take control
i can't do this without you
you are my rock and my supporter
i have learned that i am absolutely
nothing and i am totally worthless
without you...
ive missed you

at schoool

2007-12-03T12:10:00.000-08:00

heyy guys. well im in advisory right now... im just thinking about lots of stuff and its a bit overwhelming. i mean theres Destiny and everything (her court date is tomorrow!) and it just seems like there are so many decisions that i have to make lately. i think ive been forgetting about one thing though... GOD.. i really have to remember that im not in this alonee... g2g though xoxoxo

well la ti da...

2007-11-21T19:47:00.000-08:00

ha im very bored right now.. but im having a bit of a problem so i think i should tell you guys.. i dunno...
well it has to do with food. i know that im not fat okay, lol unless you guys think so. i hope you don't! lol anyways. so my problem lately has definatly been over eating. its not that im eating bad foods.. although i do that too much too! but i eat as soon as i get a tinnny bit hungry. i am gaining some weight and i really don't want to gain any weight.. cause then my pants don't fit..lol but anyways, ive really been struggling with this. God has called me to fast to help show me that i need to put him over food and that he can get me through the days without eating. can you guys please pray for me?? thanks...

whats new?

2007-11-19T17:27:00.000-08:00

i figured that i should update because a few people have come up to me and asked me how my slump has been going... haha.. well that "slump"only lasted that one night. after that i felt fine. i think i was just tired and stressed as most of us are at the end of the week. anyways, so to let you all know, i did pass my drivers exam. i only got 6 points off this time, not 38.. lol but driving has been so much fun. its so weird not having my mom in the passenger seat saying ohh kay thats a stop sign..haha.
this past weekend was very fun since i barely had any homework. on Friday I went to worship at 6:00 for youth and then we did our thing and it was much fun. and then after that i went home and did my piano practice and then steph came over and we talked on my couch for like 10 minutes and then kent calls and is like guys wanna do something? and we were so bored so we all went to pizza hut and said hi to leon and then went to Alexander's and ate some delicious nachos.. i am definatly going there again! so then steph came back to my house and we had a sleepover and we slept in like there was no tomorrow..haha and yeah then Saturday i can't really remember much of what happened.. i think... oh yeah i did homework and then i went to leons and watched a movie and then went to bed at like 10:00 ahah and then Sunday my lovely katleynn was baptized!! man am i ever proud of you! and then i got to go out for a fancy lunch at the bessborough.. leon paid for that one and can i tell you that i felt like the most biggest princess ever? haha it was so much fun and then i went home and watched the last bit of the football game with my mom and yeah that was my weekend...i love weekends....
xoxoxxoxoxox

im in a slumppp...

2007-11-09T17:04:00.000-08:00

wow i don't even know how to tell you how im feeling right now. i dunno, im not necesarilly depressed but im not happy. i don't feel like going to youth tonight at all, i feel like crawling into my bed and sleeping. on the other hand, going out to a movie with a friend sounds appealing. i don't want to talk to anyone, i just want to be with people. i want to know whats going to make me happy. now all i feel like doing is stuffing my face with pizza and gulping down a diet coke. i feel so tired right now and grumpy and i don't want to snap at anyone at youth. but i want to go to youth so i can get out of my stupid house cause ive been here all day. hmm well i guess ill come to youth. i don't really have an option other than going to bed or watching a movie by myself which i don't want to do. hmm.. guess ill have to take some words from the wize and "suck it up princess.."

i didn't even see it....

2007-11-09T10:19:00.001-08:00

last night i was sitting and talking with leon. he was telling me about a whole bunch of stuff that was happening with him. then we just sat there and he asked me if i was okay. and i said no for some reason. he asked why and i said i have no clue. then he asked me about what was happening in my life.

then it hit me...

it felt like a ton of bricks were squishing me and i couldn't breathe and i was trapped and i could see this little light in the distance but i could never reach it. i would try to reach for it but more and more bricks kept trapping me...

i realized that i had gone through so much in the past few months. i didn't realize that i had been okay until now, it just sorta hit me when i stopped to think about it. its weird how that happens, you don't actually realize what you've been through until you stop. thats my problem, i never stop andi never think. i just go and do.. and keep going. but now i realize that that is going to hurt me in the end if i don't realize whats happening in my own life. im too caught up with whats happening around me and what im going to miss.

leon told me that whats happening is like this: im walking along a path, and i have a backpack. in the backpack are lots of stones, they are other peoples problems. and the keep filling up my backpack. soon my backpack is full of stones, it doesn't overflow but it is so heavy that i fall down. all the stones fall out of the backpack and i just sit on the ground. people pass by me with their half full backpacks and just stare and move on. Then my friends come around and they fill their backpacks with some of my stones so that when they help me up my backpack is a lot less heavy.

lately it seems like so many of my friends are having problems from abusive situations all the way to boy troubles. i guess i felt like i needed to be the strong one and i realized that im not the strong one. God is the strong one. i think that now that i now this i need to give God all these problems because he is the only one who can help me. God is my rock.

devos....

2007-10-22T06:42:00.000-07:00

Be still and know that I am God Psalm 46:10
I read this in my devos this morning. Last night I was like man i should read my bible. Then just as I was about to pick it up, God was like Gracie, you just need to be still for a minute, no writing prayers, no reading just listening. So I was like okay. Fine, have it your way...lol. So i grabbed my iPod and sat on my bed and started to listen to my wroship music. I found a good song and just looked out my window. Right in my window was the moon. It was so big and beautiful. And i realized hey, my daddy made that. Thats pretty cool. So then I just sat on my bed and looked at the moon and just thought about how awesome God is. He has been totally blessing my life lately and I have been coming so much closer to him. He has shown me how he can bring certain people in your life for a reason, there not just there for your entertainment. He's shown my how he can work through me when im willing to take risks for him, but he will reward me in the end. God is totally awesome guys.

oh im just a thinkin...:P

2007-10-16T20:58:00.000-07:00

well ive been thinking lately. since i've had a lot of time to think. a few days ago i was thinking. i felt so alone, weak and just drained. I cleared my mind and tried to relax. i saw my bible laying on my table. without even thinking, i picked it up. i heard the words psalm and 62 in my head. i immediatly could tell that it was my father's voice. so without hesitation i flipped to pslam 62 and it was such a miracle and a blessing. it says:
1 For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation. 2 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall never be shaken.
3 How long will you assail a person,
will you batter your victim, all of you,
as you would a leaning wall, a tottering fence?
4 Their only plan is to bring down a person of prominence.
They take pleasure in falsehood;
they bless with their mouths,
but inwardly they curse.
5 For God alone my soul waits in silence,
for my hope is from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
7 On God rests my deliverance and my honor;
my mighty rock, my refuge is in God.
8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us.
9 Those of low estate are but a breath,
those of high estate are a delusion;
in the balances they go up;
they are together lighter than a breath.
10 Put no confidence in extortion,
and set no vain hopes on robbery;
if riches increase, do not set your heart on them.
11 Once God has spoken;
twice have I heard this:
that power belongs to God,
12 and steadfast love belongs to you, O Lord.
For you repay to all
according to their work.
For me this was such a blessing not only because i felt like i was alone, but also because i felt like i had done all these things for God but nothing had come from it. He promises us that we will be repayed for the things we have done for him. i know that God is my rock and I can lean on him...
just thinkin....

prayer for me.... praise for God...

2007-10-12T16:32:00.000-07:00

Father, i know that i can get excited reallly easy. Tonight when im out with my friends can you please guide the way i talk and act. help me to slow down and help me to see other around me. Help me to listen sometimes...

God i praise you for putting so many blessings in my life. you are truely amazing. i have seen you work in so many lives. please help me to recognize these blessings and give them back to you. you are the one that deserves all the credit. You have surrounded me with so many God given opportunities and so many people willing to help me accomplish them.

wow two posts in one day....

2007-10-05T17:28:00.001-07:00

well im not sure as to why im posting right now but i just need to get out my thoughts i guess. im feeling really traped, literally, i just feel like i want to get out of the house. its probably because all i did yesterday was sit at home by myself till midnight. but sometimes thats all i feel like doing lately. i dunno things are crazy and i just want to have fun and get on with my life. i dunno wats holding me back though. maybe im just pmsing?? i have no clue.... oh well i just everything to go back to normal in my life so that i can function...

Friends

2007-10-05T09:03:00.000-07:00

well most of you know by now that leon and i aren't together anymore. obviously for his sake and mine im not going to talk about it but what i am going to say is that it was avery good experience. we went out for almost 15 months. you would think after going out for so long, you couldn't be friends afterwards, but of course there is God in all of this. The night that i broke up with Leon we felt so much love for eachother, in a friend way, and we were so happy that we didn't have to part in bitterness. i know that he will always be my friend.
but on the other hand, what do i fill this huge whole in my heart with?? Well the obvious answer is God and that is what i have been doing. its been amazing just being so lonely and then being like Gods my best buddy, i can always chill with him tonight. but also, i realized that there are so many friends that i have forgotton about that are all around me . they aren't the obvious ones either. today i wrote one of my friends an email apologizing for how i treated her becuase i felt as though i had ignored her. then i read my devotions on my email and it was all about friends. it wasn't anything long but here it is:

A man [that hath] friends must show himself friendly. Proverbs 18:24 During your teenage years they can make you or break you. They can stress you out more than anything else. No, they aren’t zits or clothing or even grades…they are your friends. All through high school and college you have to be in the right social circles. In high school you have the jocks, cheerleaders, preps, party goers, nerds, etc. In most colleges there are fraternities and sororities that everyone wants to be a part of. While social status may be the important factor in the world today, that doesn’t mean you should snub those considered “lower” than you. When you ignore others, you are showing that you don’t care about them. Less and less people will like you because of your harsh actions. Proverbs says that, “A man who has friends must show himself friendly.” When you are nice to everyone, God’s grace shines through you and you become a friend of all of the groups at your school or work. Go out of your way today to be kind. See the rewards that God will grant you when you treat everyone the way you would like to be treated.

That just spoke to me and told me that i shouldn't care about all these cliques and stuff, i need to put myself out there...

update finally!

2007-09-29T21:25:00.000-07:00

heyy everyone. it feels like its been years since ive blogged last! i guess facebook kinda took me over.. it just seems so convienient and fast. oh well. blogs are fun too! so anyways, the past few weeks have been rough ones but God was truely been by my side and he's been my best friend. God has shown me some pretty awesome people in my life and they have benn really supportive. things have been moving along though...
Destiny's court date seems closer and closer each day. but i feel really calm about it. but even though i feel really calm about it i have to remember that i need to pray about the whole situation.
well there doesn't seem much to talk about but i guess its cause i've talked to you guys for the most part. well unfortunatly i didn't come to youth cause i had to babysit but at least we came for the visit which was nice. haha destony did not want to leave nathan. oh well... ttyl....
<3

prayer..

2007-09-19T09:46:00.000-07:00

hi guys, God has been revealing himself even more to me still. he has put people on my mind that i need to pray for. There is a guy that i know that usually is sorta mean to people. In the past few days i've really been gettin to know him better. Hes having a super hard time right now and hes very depressed and his family is not very supportive... he really needs our prayers.
Father-
help me to show your love to this guy
heal his hurting heart and
keep him dafe in the shelter of
you wings
i pray that you would work in
his life, he knows you father
help me to show him how real you are
AMEN.

miracles...

2007-09-16T15:30:00.001-07:00

these past few weeks God has been revealing himself more and more to me. His presence is so strong. I've been reading John and there are a lot of Jesus' miracles in that book. God blessed me in so many ways since i've started reading John, like helping me find my band hoodie and helping my family and so many other things. and the blessings aren't luck, they are purely from God. heres a song ive been thinking about...
We who were called to be Your people
Struggling sinners and thieves
We’re lifted up from the ashes
And out came the song of the redeemed
The song of the redeemed
The song of the redeemed
Can you hear the sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
Rising up to You, God
The sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
Rising up to You, God
We have caught a revelation
That nothing can separate us from
The love we received through salvation
It fills your daughters and your sons
Your daughters and your sons
The sound of Your love
The sound of Your love
Is what You’re hearing
The sound of Your sons
The sound of Your sons
You’ve won Your children
The sound of Your love
The sound of Your love
Is what You’re hearing
Your daughters in love
Your daughters in love
You’ve won your children
The sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
Rising up to You, God

Picture day

2007-09-04T06:39:00.000-07:00

today is picture day at school. yay.... not. well actually i don't mind getting my picture taken. but anyways, more to the topic of school. well last weeks was my first week, if u can call 3 days a week. hahaah... it was sooo much fun. im so glad to be back at school. i missed all my friends so much and it was great to get my brain working again from the pile of mush it turned into during the summer. oh and next week i start piano up again, i am VERY excited about this.
but something usually happens to me during the year and it has happened already. i am one of those people who are involoved in everything. i want to be busy. but God showed me during mexico that i have to have time for him. Last week I signed up for the musical that we are putting on at our school. I have to audition on Wednesday. I was pretty pumped. But last night my mom and i looked at all the prctive times and it is crazy! so i thought about it and decided that my school work would probably suffer if I went in the musical and also my social life with God would go down the hole. so im not doing it anymore. yes i was disapointed but there will always be other musicals and plays and more that i can be involved in. But its almost 8:00, almost time for school...
xoxoxoxox

school? already???

2007-08-26T16:22:00.001-07:00

this week the buzz has been all about school. why shouldn't it be? its a shock to think that we will go back to school on Wednesday. Although im quite happy because im ready to get my brain going again and get into the rutine of things again.

well not much has been happining in my life this past week. oh i got facebook, which is why i haven't been blogging much. im still not very good at the whole posting pictures thing, but i do have some pictures of leon and i posted. anyways, enough about facebook.

Kent came into town as well, our "crew" as he likes to call it, went to Timmys. we had so much fun and some of his other friends came too. it was sad to see him leave but it was really nice to see him. and its not like he's gone forever!
today me and katelynn and steph hung out. hahahaha we took some pretty ridiculous pictures of ourselves...lol
well hopefully my blogging will be more frequent than last year during school..lol
xoxoxo

just thinkin...

2007-08-17T08:41:00.000-07:00

right now im in a bit of a spiritual slump. at the beggining of the summer i was doing really well with devotions and praying and stuff. but when i got a job and stuff, i forgot about Him. it makes me angry to think that i would forget about someone so important and special to my heart, it would be like forgetting my birthday or something. but anyways i feel very empty and im sure most of you can relate to this feeling. even when i was doing my devotions it was like, okay read this one chapter and ur done and go to bed. Sometimes it wasn't like that, sometimes i would read more and be really interested. but im not feeling close to Him.
This morning my mom talked to me about God. Usually im like oh no, here she goes again. but this morning i was really listning to her and wanting to hear what she had to say. She talked about my purpose in life and how i have to listen to God and do his work. My purpose is to lead others to christ, this is our purpose. She gave me an image. She said, imagine you are in Disneyland and you are so happy and having fun, then theres this glass wall that comes down. You are on one side of it with other people, and others are on the opposite side. On your side there are all the believers, on the other are the people that God placed in your path to help lead to Christ but you never took the time. I don't want to go to heaven and look down at all the people i could've helped lead to Christ.
God has put a fire in my heart this morning to do his work. I feel like he is calling me. I don't know what he wants me to do but i know that it will bring me closer to him. Unfortunatly, when you start getting closer to God, Satan attacks you. There is a battle for each of our hearts and it is hard when Satan tempts you with the easy way out, but really its not so easy. Heaven will be great, the greatest thing ever and our hearts belong to Christ. He is awesome and he loves us so much.
There this guy at work who i realllllllly don't like. hes sorta creepy and annoying. Lately i've felt bad feelings towards him. I'm usually not like that towards people but for some reason i felt that for him. My mom knows about this guy and she said remember that he is one of God's children, whether he believes or not. He belongs to God and He loves this guy as much as you or any of us. Jesus says for us to be loving to those who don't love us. So now im going to take a bit of a different attitude towards this guy, because he is one of God's children.
I have to go for now, my bible and prayer journal are calling me...

court #2 continued...

2007-08-15T15:48:00.000-07:00

so there was another court date on the 14th and nothing happend again! man its so hard to deal with this cause you have no clue what will happen. so now we have her for sure untilnovember something. on november 12th we will have had Destiny for a year. well i haven't posted in awhile but there hasn't been much to write about. lifes been pretty boring although erin came over the other day and we madesome REALLLY good brownies, but of course the batter always tastes better! and the baby shower was a lot of fun..lol especially tha baking part. leon and i and brennen made cookies...lol its was pretty fun. i basically made the cookies and the stole the cookie dough balls off of the trays. lol that was all good for them until i found a wooden spatula to hit them with..hah! but yeah. so i really want to get together with a bunch of people before school starts cause i miss everyone so keep your eyes peeled for an email from me! well i guess i shouldgo help my mom with supper. luv u all!
xoxo

Nickelback

2007-08-08T09:05:00.000-07:00

Yesterday Leon and I went to the Nickelback concert at the Ex. It was totally awesome. Im not a huge fan of Nickelback but they put on a really good show. And surprisingly having beer thrown at me by Chad Kroeger isn't that fun. But i had a lot of fun. There was fire and fireworks and the music was super loud. oh did i mention i had floor tickets? It was soo squishy. There were like 500 people all crammed on the floor. It was so crowded but I was enjoying myself. It was really hot though and I hate being hot in a crowd. But anyways, so this badn called State of Shock played first and they were okay. They didn't get the crowd going very much, i wasn't a big fan. Then Yellowcard played and they were much better. I've heard someof their music on my snowboarding video game. At least they were more professional. But then we had to wait like 30 minutes so they could change the set for Nickelback. It was sooo big! Leon and i were really near the front so we could see the band really well. Unfortunatly theres always the drinkers but for the most part people just wanted to enjoy the show. They sounded extremly good live. And im going to the ex on Saturday probably, and im going on all the rides!!! well maybe not the merry go round and the sling shot. I already tried to get leon to go on that with me but he said he got sick just looking at it! but now i must study...

xoxoxooxx

Court

2007-08-02T17:48:00.000-07:00

hi guys. sorry to keep u all waiting in suspense about the court date. Like we all suspected the judge said that everyone needed more time so theres another court date booked for like the 14th or something. So yeah. that one may or may not decide something major. the judge could say the same thing and just give everyone more time. thanks for praying for us guys!
xoxoxox

embarrassing moment # bazillion

2007-07-30T17:59:00.000-07:00

so as u are probably guessing i had another embarrasing moment. this time it was at work... just listen..
so im all happy cause work is going well and my boss asks me if can set up the new pop display and fill all the pop holders. i hate filling pop holders cause they are slanted and so annoying. but yeah, so my boss drags this huge thing of two litre pops that i have to put out and its covered in this hard saran wrap type stuff. so, being me, i start hacking at it with my dull exacto knife. i accidently slip and....
chop my finger off!!!
JUST KIDDING!
no it hits one of the two litres and in a split second i hear a fizz and im wet. yes the pop decided to explode all over my uniform. i ended up having to go 5 more hours wet, sticky, and smelling like diet coke.. yumm... thats my story

p.s. please pray for our family and destiny tomorrow. its her court date. nothing may happen though. we have no clue. thanks

oh and also two litre pops at my work (the store brand) are on for $0.89 each.. lol
xoxoxoxoxo

update!

2007-07-29T09:29:00.000-07:00

hi guys, yeah its definatly been awhile! life has been busy as usual... but its been nice. God has answered my prayers yet again. as most of u know i was struggling with deciding whether to work or not. the next day after i posted that prayer request, my mom sat me down and talked to me about work. i told her that i realllllly wanted a car and how was i supposed to get one without a job??? well... she said that i could use the family car, the van.. and when i learned to drive a standard i could drive dad's car. so that solved that. but also i wanted money to spend and what not as well. but God told me that he would provide and that after coming home from mexico he had told me that i needed time to listen to him and to spend time with him. so how was i supposed to have a job, do piano, guitar and all my other stuff and spend time with God. I don't wante to fit God in, i want to buil everything around my time with him.
anyways, so that is that.
this morning before work i was reading my devotions on the internet and one stuck out for me. here is the verse...
Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. Only let us live up to what we have already attained. Philippians 3:13-15 (NIV)
what this verse is talking about is that it doesn't matter what kind of past you have had. God loves you and will forgive you. He gave his only son up so that we could live life to the fullest. He doesn't want us to sit around at think about all the bad things we've done. He wants us to live.
well i better go for now, work is calling my name unfortunatly. talk to you all soon!
xoxoxoxox

Destiny

2007-07-20T09:28:00.000-07:00

well Destiny is my little foster sister as most of you know. shes a sweetheart and is a big part of my life now. i've been thinking about her a lot and its funny how this little person can come into your life and you can bond with them and fall in love with them so easily. at first when she came into my life i wasn't sure about having a baby around, there would be no more late night driving for my parents and things were going to be a little more busy. but i have gotton used to it by now and it would feel weird for her not to be around. sure its a little annoying when shes screaming at the dog because she won't lick her hand at 5:00 am...
anyways, the reason im talking about her is because her court date is conming up. there is a 50% chance that the court may just give us another date because everyone might not be ready or they could get right into it and say that shes either going to stay with us or going to another family for adoption.
i never really thought of the possibility of Destiny ever leaving us but it has hit me hard the past few days that she might not be waking me up at 5:00 am every morning, sticking her sticky fingers through my hair...
even though we aren't blood related i can't help not loving her like my sister. i hope that she gets to stay with us but i don't want to be selfish. i know that God has her in his hands and that he will take care of her wherever she goes. can you guys please pray for Destiny and our family.
hope everyones haveing a good summer.
xoxoxoxoxox

grrrr

2007-07-09T15:57:00.000-07:00

well the retreat is not a "yes" for me. and why i can not go is because of two things. One is work. i don't work the Friday but i do work on the Saturday in the early morning. I also have to be at the church by about 7:30 on Sunday and i think having to get up that early have been at work the previous day is going to be hard enough but i think that the reatreat would tire me out even more! it sucks that i can't come though because i wasn't able to go on the winter one either, so i've missed out on two in a row. and the reatreat was my only "camping" for the summer. oh well, i guess theres always next winter and summer. So what have all u guys been up to. I asked my boss for less shifts so i can actually have a life outside of work... because i do! but yeah... other than that nothing much else is happening. hopefully ill talk to some of u soon! congrats on the job enji...lol
xoxoxoxo

my new job

2007-06-30T07:21:00.000-07:00

hi everyone! well ive been busy lately so bloging hasn't been happening but working definatly has been happening! i've been so tired though. my job is basically stocking anything in the grocery part and the freezer. it may sound simple,and it is but its hard work cause its lifting heavy stuff. if u guys don't have any plans this summer then come get a job with me!! (cough erin) everyone is super nice there and im really enjoying myself. at least im getting a good workout!

and i can't come on the retreat because (actually leon and i) are working at VBS during the morning of the 13th and the morning of the 15th. i really wanted to go this time since i didn't get to go to the winter retreat. but i don't think it's gunna work out. but yeah...

update ur blogs guys!! i know u have nothing to write about steph but that doesn't matter! well i better go. see you guys at church tomorrow!!! ugg i have to work from 1 till 10 today, so im not gunna be able to chill today!

one year

2007-06-26T07:03:00.000-07:00

hi everyone! wow i haven't posted for awhile. Well yesterday was my one year with leon. i couldn't believe it. Definalty doesn't seem that long. it just seemslike a few months ago he asked me out. haha, anwyays... Today is my first day at work. yay..lol pray that i won't screw anything up please! hahah well i've got to go. summer is finally here for me!!!!todays my last final, science... it shouldn't be too hard. Hopefully see you all soon!

YAY GOD!

2007-06-18T11:48:00.001-07:00

God's amazing guys! he answered my prayers. I got the job @ Sobey's!!!!!

scared...

2007-06-15T06:52:00.001-07:00

i never heard back from the guy at Sobey's. but it sounded as if he would call me either way. maybe he forgot?

request

2007-06-14T10:34:00.000-07:00

well i just posted but i need you guys to pray that i would get this job at Sobey's. i had my interview yesterday and he is phoning me today. thank you!
xoxoxo

la ti dah...

2007-06-14T10:24:00.000-07:00

the end of school is approaching most of us...
finals are starting, summer vacations are beggining...
things are winding down and plans are forming...
but this is all good. summer is so nice, its so realxing and amazing cause the sun is out and the birdies are singing.. and also waking us up at 5:00 am..lol steph.. (nature woke us up!) and i love looking at all the beautiful things God has created for us to look at and take in. Yesterday Leon and I went for a walk. we didn't know where we were going, we just walked. We walked towards my school and then came upon the forestry farm. We decided to take a walk through there because Leon had never been.. (can u believe that?!) and yeah, so we walked though there and Leon and I came upon the white tigers. They came right up to the glass and looked at us. it was truely amazing. And leon was just in awe...lol i realized how God has made such beautiful creatures in this world. Hes done it all for us. He gave his LIFE for US...
that is the amazing thing. now im having one of those moments where its like a train hit me and i realize that God died for us and he loves us so much. God's cool...

thinking...

2007-06-12T12:13:00.000-07:00

hmmm... i was thinking about the sermon on singleness with pastor chet. It was really interesting to me. at first i was like ohhh brother, why do i need to listen to this? im not single... plus i've heard talks about being single anyways. But then he started to talk about what our family can do for singles. We can take them under our wing and be their family. We can take them out with us and let them be part of our family. I realized that I can do that with some of my friends who are single. I don't have to feel like they are a third wheel, unless i make them feel like that. They can just be hanging out with me and leon. steph, leon and i sorta did that last summer. We hung out almost everyday and it was fun, not akward. anyways...

well congrats to Katelynn and Keith, who are officially going out! awww u guys are cute. keith had on a shirt that said Katelynn, will u go out with me? and then he gave her a rose and asked her. it was adorable.

Oh can u guys please pray for leon cause he has been having stomach problems for the last three weeks and he is in a lot of pain. Please pray that God would heal him. Thanks guys. Love you all...

xoxoxoxo

random thoughts...

2007-06-08T07:35:00.000-07:00

its just another day...
im bored..
at school....

well lifes goin pretty good for me.. (goot..lol steph) im still feeling so far away from Him. After hearing how God was working in all of your lives at bible study last night, it made me sad. i realized how nice it is to have a relationship with him. God gave me strength last night so that i could stay up and write in my prayer journal. Those things are truely amazing. I love journaling but this is ridiculously amazing. God is amazing, i know that. He changed my life but how come i can't feel him, how come it doesn't feel like he is there. There are so many questions running through my head. Something that has really hit me hard lately is that God loves me. God loves everyone, equally. It blows my mind knowing that he loves me the same as a person who has murdered somebody. he loves all of us no matter what we've done. God has so much love, God is love...

at school...

2007-06-07T10:49:00.000-07:00

im at school, again. i don't know why im typing in orange, i hate orange... i don't really like oranges or orange juice. oh well. nothing really interesti. nothing really interesting happening these days. oh today our school went into a peremiter lock down. apparently someone saw some person with a gun. but it was actually a construction worker with a paint thinger that had a trigger on it. hahahah, wow thats about as interesting as it gets. well how are all of your guys' weeks going?? this week seems to be flying by.... i haven't been doing anything excpet homework. oh and now im worrying again... i get my history mark back next week.... u.gggg i hope i don't fail cause if i do, i have to pay for lessons and they are SO expensive.... so pray that i pass guys. anyways..... what else.. nothing. theres nothing to write about. grr im so bored. im supposed to be working on an English project about herbicides on grass.. WOOHOOOO!!!! yeah im gunna go look at pictures of grass now...

just another day...

2007-06-04T19:38:00.000-07:00

im sitting here writing, or typing i guess, to all u guys while watching rent...which i got for my birthday. its not bad, but theres sooo much singing. luckily i know one of the songs from choir.. so i can sing along, although leon gets annoyed... oh well who cares, hes asleep anyways..hahah he was supposed to be watching it with me but he fell asleep and i moved to the computer. yay me...lol oh well. oh i guess i should tell y'all wat i got for my birthday.. ummm some shorts, and an i pod... rent, and flip flops from walmart... i got a pretty good tasting cake too.. yummmy! anyways, well i don't have much to say but im so bored that i thought that id post. Oh me and katelynn are making medieval food tomorrow. its gunna be funny. We are doing medieval cookery for our final project in history. hopefully we are gunna get a good mark. hmm well not much else to say... hope u all have a goood week.. opps..too many o's in good..lol....
xoxoxoxo

last day....

2007-06-02T07:50:00.000-07:00

well its my last day of being 15. lol no this is not what this post it gunna be about. im not sure what this post is going to be about. Im bored right now and i felt like writing. have you guys ever had one of those weekends where you have soomuch stuff to do but you don't really want to do it and you don't know where to start. yeah, thats me. but i can look forward to my birthday dinner tomorrow! yummy.. ribs and ceaser salad! my favourite. my other options were sushi, or homemade southern fried chicken. my mom makes some good stuff but i love ribs. me and nathan usually have ribs on our birthdays and dad usually has the chicken.

Topic change..

Well i have to find a job for the summer and i thought that i was getting a job babysitting everyday from 8-12, but it turns out the lady doesn't need me anymore. So now i have to go into the real world and fill out application forms. I have one from sobeys. I know some people who work there, it doesn't seem too bad. Plus its close to home so i can get there quickly. I also was thinking of applying at the new Boston Pizza but i just can't see myself being a waitress, i go wayyyyy too fast. i think that working at Starbucks would do me better! but then again Starbucks is my coffee place and apparently "you don't want to ruin it for yourself" Leon says.. oh well i guess he's right, look at him. hes a vegitarian working at KFC. Clothing stores don't reallly appeal to me... i dunno...

Another new topic.. ive been up since 5:40 am. haha funny story... well im sick and my dad came home with some sinus nightime pills for me and my mom told me to take one about 8:30. I did and i asked her if it would make me drowsy. she said maybe a little. Leon came over at 9 and we were just talking and all of a sudden it was like this wave of sleepiness came over me. And i just started to close my eyes. Leons like Gracie its time for bed. So i ended up going to bed at 10:00. i don't sleep much and i woke up at 5:40am. Thats my story, i hoped u liked it... i didn't..lol

oh i LOVE the one way girls blog. awesome!!!!

well i better go i have a four page essay to write on medieval food, ohhh food, im hungry!

xoxoxoxoxo

Mexico

2007-05-29T11:40:00.000-07:00

well here i was thinking i would have so many things to write about mexico. and i can't even process this whole experience. when people ask me how it was all i can say was amazing! it was such a great experience that it just blows my mind. I don't know what words to use to describe it. One of the things that God taught me on this trip that i spoke about Sunday, was the power of patience and listning. Im so busy all the time and god really spoke to me when I listened to him and took time out of my day for him. I never thought that God talked to me but i know now that i was just not listning to him and making him important. Another thing that happened on this trip that was really fun was going to adult evangalism. This one night we went to a new neighborhood and about a dozen people gave their lives to God. That was truely amazing. Church on Wednesday night was sooo powerful. Even though we were worshiping in Spanish, it still touched my heart. I loved all the songs. God blessed all of us, i know it. I have become so much closer with him. But what do i do next? Amanda Bendel told us a few things that she recommended we do after the missions trip. One thing that im definatly going to do is continue my prayer journal. Other than that im sorta unsure. Anyone got any ideas???

band trip!

2007-05-16T14:08:00.000-07:00

heyy guys, man i had soo much fun on the band trip. Here's how it went:
MONDAY
i woke up at 5:45, yeah im an early bird... showered and dressed and went to school. We packed up the bus and left for red Deer at about 7:30 ish. and yeahh so the bus ride there was fun. i mostly watched movies and listened to my iPod. I sat with Vicky (who plays trombone) and behind me were two grade 9 boys who were trying to flirt witgh me. they kept winking at me and then they would play with my hair and then they would slap their ties on my head.. not fun..... oh well. so the first thing we did was drive to an elementry school and perform there. it was sooo funny cause all the kids were pluging their ears...haha it was soooo loud. then we went to the hotel and checked in and stuff. For dinner I had chinese food at the mall and then we shopped for a bit which was sorta boring. The highlight was that some of the dumb grade 9 boys got escorted out of the mall by the security gaurds for shooting us with nerf guns..ahahahah... that was awesome. then we went back to the hotel and swam for a bit and then afterwards the party started. katelynn, Kayla and Caitlin and me were all in a room together. We all bought 10 dollers worth the junk food and ma was there a lot. There was red bull, starbucks frappacinos, chocolate, everything! then some of the guys came into our room and we listned to music and watched them dance really badly..haha yeah. then Kayla and I stayed up packing and ironing our shirts till 2:00 am..lol then we had to wake up at 6:15...uggg

TUESDAY:

Well waking up wasn't too bad. I was the first one up and i just hopped out of bed and started washing my face and brushing our teeth. Then the other girls got up and we got some of the guys and we all walked down for some breakfast. It was kinda gross.. a crappy cup of coffee and a frozen cinomen bun... yay... oh well it wasn't too bad. at least it was food. anyways, then we all went back upstairs and the guys came into our room to hang out for a bit and then the teacher came and shes like you guys have to get ready!!!! and we were all still in our Pjs and so the guys went out.. lol all except for Mark and he was hiding in the window sill but then Mrs. Mortenson (teacher) looked for him and we heard him scream and run cus his leg got stuck in the window sill..hahaha yeah then we left and drove to the college and played fairly well. We had an adjudication and then sight reading. After that we listned to two bands and it was off on the road again. we had A and W for lunch and drove some more and like 2 hrs later we had dinner at Boston Pizza. I wasn't hungry at all so me and Adam shared some hot wings. Haha all the guys kept taking the sugar packets and eating them. Then we drove. I slept the whole way pretty much and yeahh.. then i got home and went straight to bed.

It was sooo much fun but soo exhausting. anyways, i got to go. love you all and I miss you. 2 DAYS!!!! (to mexico if ur wondering...) heeheeeeeee

What is Faith?

2007-05-12T12:35:00.000-07:00

FAITH--->seeking and knowing Jesus
FAITH-->complete confidence in a person or plan
FAITH-->believing iin something that we can't see our touch

Faith was the topic of discussion last night at youth. It was very interesting. Faith is something most Christians struggle with. It's so hard to trust God with everything, your life, your family, your friends, your future....
We all know that God loves us and he wants the best for us, so why is it so hard to give everything over to him?
because we like to control our life. most of us think that we don't need help from God, we can control our life. But really, we need God to control our lives. Without him we are hopeless. we need God to be our provider, we don't need to worry about anything. Faith is hard to have... but when you do, its amazing. One interesting thing said last night was a quote from the screwtape letters by C. S. Lewis (who is an amazing author by the way). it said that if a person who didn't have any faith when they are in a situation but still did the right thing (what God wants), that is what frusterates the demons the most. Anyways, i just thought that was cool.

missions

2007-05-11T08:04:00.000-07:00

well i think that last nights meeting was one of the most fun ones ever. the food was amazing!!! thanks sooo much lynn. and yeah the foot washing was really interesting and tickly too..lol but it made me feel very greedy and bad because i felt like someone was being a servant to me, id rather be the servant. i know God is going to use all of us in Mexico and it is going to be an experience that we will never forget. We willbe His servants. Last night's meeting made it all seem real to me. not like well mexico is coming and well yeah... its like WHOOOHOOO ITS MEXICO!!! lol im pumped for it and its going to be an awesome time, especially in terms of bonding with eachother. I think that its going to really be like we are all brother and sisters in Christ. I've got sooo much packing and whatnot to do and plus on Monday and Tuesday I'll be in Red Deer, AB (srry its Alboyta for me and steph..grr Steph and I) for a band trip. woot!! and that means late nights, and movies and food!!! hahah are plan is to bring popcorn and go to the front desk and ask them to pop it all for us.. yuppers.. well i got to go study some more. reallly nervous for my test but not toobad. i know God is gunna help me get through this and im just thinking of how good its gunna feel when its all over and done with. Anyways, i better go. Love you all!!!

another embarassing story...

2007-05-06T15:38:00.001-07:00

well on friday, i was opening my locker in the gym. my lockers one of the little ones on the bottom row. i bent over and swung my locker open and i like totally banged my nose realllllly hard on the edge. it really hurt! luckily nobody was there but i have a red bruise on my nose...lol yes that is my story...

hahahaaahahahhahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

2007-05-04T15:40:00.000-07:00

<--- steamy Jack sparrow..haha steph that was for you!!!!!!!!!!

guess wat? the funniest thing just happened! there was a police man in my house, yes i know it doesn't sound that funny right now but just listen to my story. Well my mom walked in the house and our alarm went off. she forgot to key in the code to shut it off so the people at securtek tried to phone her to see if everything was okay...cept my mommy was on the phone. so they sent a police man over. so heres grace, standing by my back door with the baby and a police man walks into my house! and i was like uhhhhhh.. my mom says oh im sorry i was on the phone! and yeah so he asked her if everthing was okay and she was like yeah. then he said have a nice day and walked out! so yeah... the he came back again because i dropped my cell phone getting out of tanners car and he picked it up and gave it to me...lol so yeah... my family is super cool...

post 84!!!

2007-04-30T10:44:00.000-07:00

haha guys this is random... its my 84th post...lol yeahh.. im at school again... and yeah, i got first on my duel piano thinger this morning with my teacher. i was pretty excited about that. but yeah got to go...

sicky poo....

2007-04-23T21:34:00.000-07:00

im sick... as you could probably tell from my title. on saturday night my tummy started to hurt bad and then i started to puke...yuCK!!! yeah i decided that going to work was not the best option. so basically i stayed in bed the whole day. i thought i was better this morning but i got up and i almost fell down. im soo dizzy and my head hurts. later today i thought i was soo much better that after only eating a table spoon of plain rice i could eat some spaghetti. BAD IDEA!!!! i felt soooo sick after that. now my tummy still hurts so i took a gravol.. so im gunna be knocked out pretty soon.. woohoo.. i love gravol..lol yeah well when ur tummy hurts and you can't sleep, gravols the best. its like the toothfairy.. k i don't know where that came from..lol ooohhh guess wat!?!??! i killed 2 spiders today!! there were two big ones... haha the last time i showed my dad a spider to kill he told me that it was a sad excuse for a spider.. i guess my version of bug ins't so big.. haha.. yeah hopefully going to school tomorrow.. if i can't get up then im definatly not. that would be sorta hard to get to class when you can't see straight.. yeah. anyways... so yeah. i should go.. ugg i keep forgetting to do my prayer journal!!! haah i likehow enji (erin) calls them PJs!! lol thats amazing. but yeah i better go ita 10:41 already. love u all!!

xoxoxoxo

work

2007-04-21T19:33:00.000-07:00

heyy girls.. i had my first day of work today. yes grace does work! well its not really a job. its at this place that has something to do with milk. all i can say is that im extremly tired and sore! standing on your feet for 6 and a half hours can hurt you!!! the job that i did was wash lids that were covered in this yucky orange goopy stuff. i was working with brynner.. a.k.a Bryn..lol and her sister and her friend. they've been their before. oh leon was there too. hes sooooo tired.. haha. met some interesting people there. Everyone was really nice there. anyways, i better go. i have to do my homework. i have to go to bed early tonight too! 9 am tomorrow morning.. woohooo

Yikes!!!!!!

2007-04-17T08:23:00.000-07:00

k, i just found outt this morning from one of the girls in the quartet im in that we are supposed to be playing a song that we aren't supposed to be playing. our teacher was supposed to switch the songs but i guess she didn't or they made a mistake.. this sucks... and its really close to when we have to perform too.. hopefully we can contact the festival and change our song.

wow again..

2007-04-16T10:56:00.000-07:00

well aprils already half way through.. aren't i good at updating my blog?? yeah right! anyways, so at the end of this month is music festical and im scared... i have to perform 1 solo piece, 1 duet, 1 two piano duet and one woodwind quartet. do yeah, that should be interesting. i also have my theory exam coming up around finals and im thinking its super hard. History is NOT fun guys. composers are BORING!!! lol ugg i don't like school. its monday too which means piano and theory.... ohh theres a school dance coming up on thursday!! im excited.. anyways i better go!
xoxoxo

wow...

2007-04-04T10:07:00.000-07:00

man i haven't posted in like forever. anyways, so im at school right now in the library.. supposed to be doing research but im not.. ohhh rebel!!! yeah sooo k random thing that happened today.. we all had an assembly today and it was actually pretty sweet. stereotrap (pretty sure they were at our church once) played. they were okay and then they did this whole presentation thinger on hero holiday or something and crime stoppers. yeah so anywho.... man im soo pumped for pankcake breakfast on friday!!! yay! and now im going to go cause im sooo scared that a teacher is gunna see im on my blog.. actually serious..
xoxoxo

gas station story

2007-03-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

well i never told you guys my gas station story. on monday i think it was, i went to the gas station for the first time. and boy was i scared, although then i reaslized that i didn't have to do anything because it wasn't self serve. So anyways, my mom and i drive up to the station and drive around it for like 10 minutes because people keep stealing my spot, so finally i find an empty spot and i wait for the guy to come and serve me. but no one comes... we waited for about 15 minutes i think, then i looked up and the sign said self serve! so then i went around and waited in line and finally someone served us. the guy asked me 3 times if i wanted my tank filled all the way. haha then he asked me to drive to the front of the station to give me my mastercard (actually my moms) and i accidently took the wrong receipt. it was hilarious, i ended up being 20 minutes late for my theory class though. oh well, its boring anyways...
well last night was very umm interesting. I was sitting in the pitch black darkness of the hotel room in the bathroom because my mom and the baby was sleeping. apparently everytime i pressed a key it was waking my mom up. so i retreated to the bathroom. anyways i waited for 2 hours cause leon was supposed to go on msn and talk to me...but he didn't cause he and kent were walking to VHQ to my house and they took a different way and they were late. but yeah then i went to bed around 12:00. and i was sooo cold! i woke up at 5:00 am to the sound of a fire alarm, everyone was going down to the lobby, but no one could find the stairs, so i went down to the lobby in my pjs and apparently it was a flase alarm and some kids from a hockey team had pulled the alarm. then it went off again at 6:00.. but not for long. i went back to sleep and my auntie phone at like 7:45 and woke me up. i got up and went downstairs and talked with my auntie and uncle and my gramma and grandpa. now im sitting in my brothers room with him and the baby.. well i better go. ttyl...
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Red Deer

2007-03-23T20:36:00.000-07:00

heyy guys.. im in red deer! woohoo.. yeahh anyways... well this morning i woke up at around 6ish and packed myself up into the car. Of course we had to turn around and come back home to grab a map..lol. the ride there wasn't too bad. it took us around 6 hours. we stopped a few times at some gas stations (luckily not too dirty!) and we went to subway for lunch. About 4 ish we arrived at the hotel. my mom and baby and i are sharing a room and the guys are in another. we went to a huge buffet for supper thats in the hotel. it was soooo good, there was roast beef, a huge salad bar with every kind of salad there, perogies, cabbage rolls, and potatoes.. ohhh and then there was dessert! all sorts of cheesecake and pies! it was sooo good. then nathan and i went back up to our rooms with the baby while my mom and dad finished their meals. we both put on our bathing suits and put baby in her new pink flowered bikini, its adorable on her. we all went to the pool and had a good swim and went in the hot tub. baby didn't really like the water, it was sorta cold. ive been pretty much just sitting, doing my prayer journal and watching tv for the last while. its been really nice though to have a break from everything and to hang out with my family. tomorrow im not really doing much cause the wedding is in the evening, so yeah. ill have to do my homework tomorrow cause obviously sunday is going to be a veryyyy busy day. Im really excited about this youth group coming and stuff, i think its gunna be a really good experience, especially for the worship band. oh and something special is also on sunday... leon and I will be going out for 9 months! wow thats a long time..ha. anyways.... well i better go. although im gunna be up for a long time cause im not even tired. hope u guys are having fun at youth (and in toronto)
xoxoxoxoxox

its so hard...

2007-03-18T07:07:00.000-07:00

its so hard to remember to do these prayer journals. In the beggining i really enjoyed doing them (i still do) its just really hard to find time to do them. I guess thats Gods way of showing me that i have to put him first in my life. Like instead of talking on the phone at night for an extra 15 minutes, i should say bye and do my journal. i like doing my journal right before i go to bed so sometimes its hard to stay awake. but i find that when my prayer journal is the last thing i do, its sorta clears my mind and relaxs me and helps me focus on God. but yeah thats my rant about prayer journals.

mmm yesterday shannon and i hung out and played ps2 with nathan. it was really fun. then leon came over and we watched a movie called hunny. its was super good. lots of hip hop dancing, and really cool stuff. umm oh and we pigged out on chips...ha so much for my promise to eat healthy after the band trip. oh well..

this week is sorta busy but nice. i havemy last soccer practice tonight and my last game on tuesday. i think thats gunna be my last. i love soccer and all but id rather focus on other things like piano, things that im gunna probably persue. i dunno...hmmm ohh yeah still got to write my testimony for thursday...uggg

2007-03-17T08:08:00.000-07:00

heyy guys. sorry i haven't updated in awhile..busy as usual. well this morning i woke up at 7:30.. woot 5 hours of sleep!!! lol destiny has now discovered eletrical outlets. she tries to get the plastic covering off so that she can stick her fingers in the outlets. anyways... sooo yesterday (friday) leon wanted to spoil me for taking care of him all week while he has been hurting. hey, helping him up the stairs has been a good work out! anyways, so my daddy took us to midtown and we just walked around a little. then we went into west 49 and in the guys section there was this adorable hat ( a toot toot had) and leon thought it would look really good on me. so he bought it for me. then we looked around some more, and went to starbucks and shared a mocha frappacino..yummm!!! then he also bought me two shirts from below the belt. one is a billabong tank top and then this other yellow shirt thats really nice. then he bought himslel some running shoes. then we walked to my daddys office and we went home. haha i slept the whole way home. if ur wondering y i wasn't at youth its cause i was hanging out with leons family. we had sooo much fun, we went to mcnalley robinson and did some other stuff.. haha his brother is soo cute, he just never stops talking. love u guys!

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gaga nana mama

2007-03-06T16:52:00.000-08:00

<--------haha this reminds me of something id say with katelynn...if ur wondering y that is my title, its because that is the sound i hear right now.. ibviously its coming from little destiny! aww shes so cute cept shes really teething now and shes grouchy..and not to mention insanely drooly. oh well. her fat little cheeks (and i didn't mean her butt.. man u guys have dirty minds...lol) make up for it. anyways... well today was fairly boring. be proud of me, i didn't leave my purse on the bus! yay for gracie. umm in first we wrote stuff about our dance workshop..blahhh! and then in second math, with katelynn and kayla.. woot and third band, which is really cold, i mean the room is freezing!!!! although im always cold, so is katie. hmmmm.. then lunch i had choir and me and katelynn had fun making up words and harmonies cause we weren't there for like a month cause of drivers... then in 4th i worked on a bunch of english things i needed to catch up on and me and katie read our beautiful, heartbreaking sonnet..lol then in 5th science!!! i love science!! i have a 95% average. yay. but yeah, we didn't blow anything up today, we froze a block of wood to a test tube thinger though..that was cool.. oh and we watched bill nye. yay!!! bill nye the science guy. so yeah then i went home and had chicken soup and salad and bread for dinner! yummmmm... oh katie i liked those pita thingers u brought for lunch. anyways, now im waiting for 9:00 to roll around so i can go to my soccer game. ugg ill be tired in the morning. but yeah, hows everyones prayer journals?? mines really good, i really like doing them.. well most of the time. can't wait for youth.. worship!!! ttyl... love u guys sooooo much!

xoxo

PRAISE GOD!!!!

2007-03-05T18:25:00.000-08:00

guess what!? God is awesome. i was praying so hard last night that someone would give me my purse back and today, a girl in grade 9 came up to me and said i think u left ur purse on the bus and im like yeahh... and then she said well i have it. i was like ecstatic! i said thank you sooooooooo much!!!! i love u!! and she was all weirded out cause i like don't know her.. haha yeah.. im havin a good day. thanks for praying for me guys. today i danced the whole day. and man am i sore. but i had so much fun. we did about an hour and a half of salsa and i was partners with vicki and then we did an hour and a half of contemporary ballet which wasn't even closely related to ballet, i dunno it was weird but relaxing, and then i went to lunch and at a sub with vicki, she was pretty much with me the whole day and we had so much fun. and then after lunch my favorite class... hip hop, man that was awesome. this girl who was teaching us was amazing, man she was soo cool. and it made me miss dancing competitvely a lot. especially hip hop, it all sorta came back to me. but dance acamdemy is really nice and i am enjoying it soo much. well i hope u guys are doing okay. love u all. srry... love y'all!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

guys...help

2007-03-04T19:45:00.000-08:00

heyy.. k guys im really scared. i know i already told u about the whole purse thinger but im really scared that someones gunna follow me home or something, its really bothering me. Im on the verge of crying... im just paranoid, but they kn0w everything about me, my school, my age, what i look like, where i was born even my middle name. thats freaky.. i dunno.. thanks for praying. leons worried about me, he wants to like come ride the bus to school with me. but yeah g2g...

oh where is my purse?!

2007-03-03T13:38:00.000-08:00

heyy sweeties.. wow thats a new one. well i wanted to tell u guys that i losted my purse. on friday i went on the bus and left my purse on it when i got off. i immediatly phoned the bus station and they said i had to wait for the morning and phone back. So my mom phoned this morning and they didn't have a purse brought it. so we assume that somebody took it. my purse had everything in it; my cell, my drivers lisence, my debit card, social insurance card, health card, birth certificate, cash..and my phone..ugggg... so most of this morning has been spent getting those things replaced and applied for. please pray for me guys, im so scared cause some weirdo without a heart to give my stuff back has all this information about me and yeah im really scared...

bored and cleaning

2007-02-27T17:51:00.000-08:00

heyy guys! well i guess i have some spare time.. *gasp* whats that?!? grace has spare time?!? lol yes i actually do right now. grr u know what i find annoying though? ive been sleeping through my alarm every morning this week! its dumb, i have it on really loud and im usually a really light sleeper, maybe thats changing. oh well. soo not much is happening inmy life right now. Mexico is getting to be more of a reality for me than a thing in the future. i recently took a test to see what my spiritual gifts are. Apparently my best spiritual gift is serving. I guess that is true. i love helping out doing random jobs like setting up that bulletin board for youth. that was fun! i also like listning to people and giving my opinion. anyways, what were ur guys like? hmmm wat else? well schools going okay cept for my history mark but that will go wayyyy up after that project me and katie are gunna do. man im excited for that big time! but yeah. im really thinking of getting a job. its so hard to afford things like going out for coffee and stuff and doing things for leon withought being like ahhhh i dunno if i have enough moohlah for that! so i dunno im thinking of regis, or a clothing store or like DQ.. dunno... somewhere close cause obviously id need a ride. Oh,well most of u know this but leon might be getting a job at star bucks! yummmmmmy. that means white chocolate mochas for katie. lol maybe she doesn;t need any caffine. hahaha but yeah. well i better go do something like vaccuume cause i don't want spiders in my room.

change.. is good?

2007-02-26T19:02:00.000-08:00

heyy guys, do u all like my new changes to my blog?? gimme sum feedback.. i thought brown was a nice change from the black i had before. love y'all!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

VaLeNtInE's DaY

2007-02-15T10:01:00.000-08:00

well, how was everyones valentine's day? mine was pretty good. im not a huge believer in it though, its just a rip off... anyways. leon bought me one red rose and a nice card..even if it was the one that came free with the flowers. All we pretty much did was order fish and chips, yes leon actually ate fish! We watched the illusionist which was good except the ending was crappy and rushed and thats about it. So it wasn't all fancy with chocolate and fancy pasta, but it was much better than that. Well ive been pretty packed this week, even with no school. Ugg school, i don't wanna go. Its been a really nice break, oh well its not over yet. today im hanging out with erin then tomorrow im spending the entire day with stephie poo!!! amn im excited. and yeah, then saturday i have a few chores to do and i have a hair appointement..yay!! and then sunday well, i dunno.. something.. then monday im having pj day at my house...its gunna be me and my mom and baby, oh and leon too i guess..lol yeah we are cool we hang out with my mom and have a fat/pj day..lol anyways, i better go. luv y'all.

woot i blogged!!!

2007-02-12T08:13:00.000-08:00

<---- haha sopngebob is my hero!!

well i actually have some spare time today to do some blogging! its so nice being bored and not being at school. plus having absolutely no homework helps too. last night i had a blast at drop in. Actually the whole day was really nice. I got up and went to sunday school bright and early at 10:15..lol and we talked about the barenaked ladies concert that mike went to the other night. He bought a memory stick that has the whole live concert on it. We listened to some of it then got into half of the bible study lesson. Oh well, it was fun. Then it was tome for church and i sat with steph all by ourselves in the 2nd row..lol aren't we so cool! then after the service me, anthony, lynn and leon went out for a super yummy lunch at chianti. i was soooo hungry. And after we shared peanut butter pie. it was soooo good!! (goot..lol steph) After that we went back to tony and lynns and leon and i did our bible study and played video games. at 5:30 i got to the church for drop in and me, erin, jeff and leon sorta set things up. i had soo much fun. and leon did the anything for a coke. it was disgusting. he put jello in a cup and put layers of whip cream and veggies in it. They had to suck the jello through a straw and the eat the veggies after. uggg it makes me cringe. Then after drop in leon and i gave my parents a break and babysat destiny for them. shes so cute but shes got the flu so shes kinda fussy. but yeah, so not any major plans for this week. Rock climbing, sams b-day, hanging out with erin and steph. umm not really much for valentines day.. unless leon plans something and surprises me..*hint hint* jk jk actually i think valentines day is more of a "hallmark holiday." they just want to u to buy stuff so they can make more money. but yeah... oh and im having so much fun writing in my prayer journal for mexico. oh yeah, stpeh have u been writing in yours? im supposed to ask..lol its really nice to just write down prayers cause i can actually concentrate. cause i dunno about u guys but sometimes when i pray i just start thinking about something else and its like grace pay attention!!! prayer journaling helps me soo much. well i better get back to the real world..lol i love you guys. i hope ur having fun katelynn!!! oh and something gross happened yesterday, my housen smells really nasty cause my mom was boiling bottle nipples for the baby to clean them and she burnt them.. it smells soooo gross like burnt rubber.

<3>

some stuff..lol

2007-02-07T18:12:00.000-08:00

Well I did eventually pick my courses out. Obviously, seeing as they were due today. Anyways, im going to be going into math A and B 30, Psychology 30, history 20, english 20, band 20, dance 20, physics, chemistry and bio 30. oh and choir too. So i have a pretty full schedule for next year but i love being busy as you all know. But yeah, im also pretty excited for break. Even though it doesn't seem that long since we just had a break but hey im not complaining! But so far all i have planned is, one day doing something with erin, and another with shannon, going skiing with steph, dancing, and shopping with my mom.. ha im going to buy a super cheezy valentines card for leon.. maybe one that sings. lol more embarassment=more fun!... for me anyways! hopefully ill just have a day to myself to just chill and watever. Let me know what days u are all gunna be around so we can hang out.

Oh and as u know i am going to mexico. i was pretty excited about that. And im sooo glad that all u guys are coming too cause i think that would've been really sad if only one of us or w/e were going. So i hope that everything goes okay for u guys the rest of this week. Oh and steph i hope your shoulder gets better! Love you all...

p.s. katie i hope ur having fun tanning ur butt off in hawaii cause we are freezing here back at home. we miss you! oh and we all love u, cept me..lol jk jk

p.s.s. i loooove step up and i think we should watch it steph the day we go skiing.

crushed dreams..

2007-02-03T06:49:00.000-08:00

heyy guys, well this morning i woke up and decided to start picking my courses for grade 11. i knew my mom would have alot of input into what classes i would be taking. Anyways, i was having a nice conversation with my dad about what classes i was taking and then my mom comes down and asks mewhat i was doing. I told her and she looked at the sheet. she saw that i wanted to take bio 20, chemistry 20 and physics 20. She told me physics was hard and that why would i take all of the sciences. I just felt like she bursted my bubble, and that i wasn't good enough. I doubt that that was her intentions but it did make me feel that way. I guess after that i was a little bit snappy because of the way she made me feel. And now shes mad and im confused. She wants me to be a little girl still and she wants to pick my classes for me because she knows best but this is my life too. I need to make my own mistakes and figure out the hard way sometimes. Im not that little girl in the pretty pink party dress anymore.

yay!!!

2007-01-24T09:31:00.000-08:00

IM AT KATIE'S HOUSE!!! yay for me. anyways, so we are really hyper cause we are trying to make all these plans and omg its 11:30 cause I like have a sim at 12:00. oh well. keith answer your phone!!!! lol yah, so well i think wats happening is im going to go to the track and run with katie and then we are coming back here and then we are going to hang out!! whooo hooo!!! yeah so then leons coming over and hanging with the home girls..lol yeah anywyas, so me and katie had a hyper history party. it was aweomse, definalty stuffed our faces.. hahahahahah. yummmmy. there was cookies and chips and other yummy goodies..haha goodies, wat a dumb word. but yeah i better go cause i got a sim at 12:00. i lover you all!!!!

fruity madness.....

2007-01-08T19:18:00.000-08:00

heyy guys, yeah katelynn gets to be special today but yeah..lol these pictures reminded me of you totally.. dunno y tho..lol

so bored...

2006-12-30T12:13:00.000-08:00

hi guys, its my official last day in victoria, tomorrow im going to vancouver, and guess what im doing?!? im having a huge party and hanging out with cool people who are my friends.. jk jk no first of all i don't have any cool friends... not u guys are awesome. and secondly i have no where to have a party. but yeah. woah, k my uncle and auntie came over and they have a huge puppy. haha he came down and licked my leg and ran away. i guess i don't taste very good..lol. hmm.. anyways, today i think im just hanging out in my huskie shorts and cleaning, reading and blogging of course. then maybe this afternoon im going out with my parents (nathans skiing) and shopping and stopping by my moms friend's place to see her kid. then i think tonight we are all going to our family friends house for dessert. yummmy!!! and i'll probably come home, check my email and crash for the night. i have to get up sorta early cause we are all going to breakfast (still can't decide where) before we catch the ferry, which we catch at 10:30. so yeah, then after that i spend the night in a hotel which we will be nice. and my grandparents are staying over in vancouver with us for the night to have new years dinner with us. i think we will be going to earls or moxies or something. then monday i begin my journey of traveling again.. woot woot, i can't wait. yes u can hear how enthused i am. but duty calls and i must leave you.

an old friend...

2006-12-28T18:28:00.000-08:00

well its been another relaxing day in victoria. i have to say though that i love it here a lot, but i miss you guys soooo much. i miss being able to call you and just hang out. anyways, well this morning my dad, nathan, destiny, my grandpa and i all walked up mount doug. it is so beautiful out there with all the tall trees unfortunalty which some have been damaged a lot by the wind and snow. anyways, its just beautiful out there. after our walk we came home and nathan and i went into the hot tub. that explains itself.. lol i got out after 5 minutes.. hey thats pretty good for being in there with my brother! anyways, after that we all got dressed and showered and whatnot and we went to my grandpa's golfing club. its quite fancy there and they even have a dress code! but the funny thing was the only pants i brought were jeans because i wasn't going to dress up too much but i had broght nice tops to kinda dress the jeans up a bit. but anyways, the only kind of pants u are not allowed to wear are jeans so i here i was in this expensive golf club eating..in my huskie pants..lol wow that was fun.. after we had lunch my mom decided that i should go over and visit my old buddy Luke. now luke and i were best friends since about grade 2. we lost contact when i moved and we haven't talked since. i was so excited to hear that he moved to victoria so i could finally see him. so as i was walking to his door i was nervous not knowing what to expect at all. i saw some dogs run to the door and my heart was racing then.. he answered the door. i actually said oh my gosh when i saw him.. which was sorta weird but i was used to the Luke who was shorter than me, short haired, obssesed with limp biskit and skateboarding instead standing in front of me was a long curly haired, somewhat grungy/skater boyish guy obssesed with his computer wearing a pink floyd t-shirt. he looked at me and i looked at him.. we said nothing and my parents talked to his dad and i left. i had a feeling that no words would be exchanged between the two of us but at least i saw him. but yeah, he still looks the same underneath all that hair and i honestly miss having him as a friend. but things change when people grow up and move away. i wonder what it would be like if i was still in calgary. id probably either be skateboarding with the guys, or watching a movie with nathan and amanda. in some ways i miss that but now i have katelynn, steph, erin and leon of course and u guys could never be replaced. thats the good thing about moving u make new friends but u still have ur old ones too. although in the process people stop keeping in contact, like luke and i which is a shame but life must go on. anyways, i mustn't start with my moving stories and move onto a different topic. now im sitting in the dark worrying about things. worrying that i won't finish my homework and i am going to mess uop on my piano exam and that i won't find my purse and i will loose all that money and stuff. but theres not much i can do. but i better go for now. i miss you guys a lot.

another day in victoria

2006-12-27T16:36:00.000-08:00

well i had another interesting day i guess. woke up around 10:30 and had breakfast. i walked back to my room and was gunna grab my towel to have a shower but i got into bed again and fell asleep tile 12:50. which is really not like me at all to sleep in. anyways, then i got up and got dressed. our family had lunch, my dad went out to visit with his old school buddies, and after he came home we all went out shopping. i didn't buy anything cause my mom and me started to fight a bit but we came home with a screaming baby. we think her stomach might be hurting her cause she was just screaming her head off. anyways, now we are back at home with our grandparents and my great auntie and uncle are over visitng my parents mostly. i have no clue what i am doing tonight, all i can reallly do is eat and go on msn. for some reason my email isn't working. maybe its this dumb macintosh computer im on. oh well. but i guess ill go for now cause i can't think of anything else to write or type i guess. but i better go.. i miss you all soooo much and i can't wait to see you guys next week. have fun at the all nighter too. love y'all

again!

2006-12-12T18:21:00.000-08:00

heyy guys. wow, does this ever happen? grace updating her blog more than once a week? wow, now i feel special... well i should, katelynn and steph.. and erin tell me that a lot... lol anyways.. i think those tylonol nighttime pills are making me a little bit sleepy.....yeahh im still sick, i felt a lot better today but then as soon as i got home it was like BAM! there goes my throat, my nose and im tired and achy. oh well... i'll live with it. now my mom is sick too. she has wat my dad had. still don't know exactly what that is tho. the only people in our house right now who aren't sick are nathan, the baby (hopefully she won't get sick), the dog, and the fish.. lol but yeah, now i have to get going cause i have to pack my bags for tomorrow. i'll talk to you guys later and im soo excited about youth on friday!
-gRaCiE

long post

2006-12-11T13:18:00.000-08:00

hi guys. hope fully this post will be long, or longer than the ones that i usually write, not Katelynn long tho..lol yeah i feel like all i write on my blog is wat i do in the day but not exactly how i feel. i guess i don't exactly want people to know my opininions cause im afraid that it will be alot different from wat they think, although there is that chance that they have the same opinion as you. well today im home sick with a cold. i've gotton sick a lot lately, probably caught it from someone at school or from my family. my daddy was really sick the last two days and still is. i have no clue wats wrong with him. its worse than the flu but kinda like it. hopefully none of you will get sick from me so thats part of the reason i stayed home, except i tried to go back at lunch, made it thru drivers ed.. yay... and then felt really sick and felt like my head was going to explode. so then i went home. when my mom was driving me home she was telling me how ever since i started going out with leon i haven't tried as hard with my piano and theory. im not going to deny this because lately i haven't had any motivation to play piano, or study for my theory exam. i know i'll do good, becasue i always make it through. i was one of the nerdy kids in elementry school (maybeim still a nerd) that freeked out before a test even though i studied hard and new i was going to get in the 90's. everything just came so easily to me, school, band... now that i have got into that pattern of things coming easily to me, when im given a challenge i don't try as hard as i can cause i know that i could just wing it and do a good job. and now its starting to eat away at me because after i do a good job on something like a piano performance or something, i feel this pang of guilt and this voice tells me, grace you didn't do ur best, yes ur performance was good but it could have been even better. even if other people don't notice, you will. and a few days ago my gramma called and was like im so proud of you gracie and your such a determined young women. i know that most grammas say that to their grand kids, but i couldn't help but feel guilty again. things like that make me want to try harder but i feel lazy like y would i want to try hard. and leon doesn't exactly contribute to me feeling like i can't try hard.. the way i see it sometimes is that y would i do my piano or do a good job when i could just hang out with leon or go on the computer. well, i guess theres a lot for me to think about. hmm wats some more stuff thats happening. well i was really worried about katelynn for a bit there. still worried but not as much.. oh my little erin (wait she's taller than me!) is growing up so fast. already off to arizona
for raquetball. i hope you do good hunni and ill by praying for you! and steph is amazing at sewing. lol i am not. yeahh.. but i got to go now
ttyl

were twins erin!

2006-12-10T09:34:00.000-08:00

heyy guys. no erin and i aren't really twins. its just that i lost my binder. the last time i saw it was Friday at school. i remember bringing it home and now i can't find it... i looked everywhere for it. so yeah this really sucks. hopefully i'll find it. what else? well my house is now officially christmasfied! we put up the tree yesterday and ate lots of cinnomen buns made by yours truely.. and my mom..lol then we watched pirates of the carribean 2 which my dad bought!! yay now i can watch it lots, we should watch it together guys cause i fell asleep through the whole movie..lol yeah i really wanna watch it again. anyways, youth was soo much fun. i love robyns house i want to have something like that when im older. it looks like fun having your own crib..lol i mean house. yeahh no im not turning gangster, i know im so good at it but... yea no.. im not. hmm wat else can i say? well today ive eaten some pineapple, a boiled egg, and right now some cheerio snack mix. yummmmy. oh if ur wondering y im not at church well its cause my mom needed me home and my dad is sick so my mom needs a alot of help with the baby and stuff. but if u guys can tell me wat the service was about id love that.. haha test to see if ur paying attention! oh at 1:30 me and katie are playing at the library. and then its the spirit of chirstmas at 6:30. but im gunna go cause i have really nothing to say... sooooooooooo bye
-dUcKiE

2006-11-27T08:42:00.000-08:00

hi guys, i really wanted to update cause yeah i haven't had time to, or i guess made time. Well so far this week has been going well although its only monday! i have i pretty busy week, but its gunna be lots of fun. i just can't for youth.. again! i love it sooo much!! anyways, this weekend i hung out with leon on saturday cause it was our 5 months... and we went out to mcnally robinson and ate at prarie ink, the food was soooo good! then we made cookies and ate cookie dough and watched a dumb movie called shadow boxer. then leon went home. the next day, sunday!!! church was amazing, i loved the songs. then after church went home and had chili then shopping with leon and my mom. then drop in and worship man that was exhausting. as much as i love worhsip its exhausting. but i got to go cause the bells gunna ring. love you all!!!

psalm 119:169

2006-11-25T08:13:00.000-08:00

May my cry come before you, O Lord;
give me understanding according to your word.
May my supplication come before you;
deliver me according to your promise.
may my lips overflow with praise,
for you teach me your decrees.
May my tongue sing of your word,
for all your commands are righteous.
May your hand be ready to help me,
for I have chosen your precepts.
I long for your salvation, O Lord,
and your law is my delight.
Let melive that I may praise you,
and may your laws sustain me.
I have strayed like a lost sheep.
Seek your servant,
for I have not forgotton your commands...